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Happy New Year everyone! It’s nearly the verge of 2010 and everyone’s chit chatting here and there about Malaysia’s football team,winning last night.Despite losing in Indonesia they won overall and I must say they won our hearts too,don’t they,so a big round of applause once again. Like in one of a sports column said,after 14 years of ‘drought’,we have finally found our oasis,alhamdulillah! And to you,my housemate,you can do it okay,don’t worry  about people around you,Malaysia Boleh! Now,everyone’s talking about resolutions and renewing them.One of my lecturer told about putting a manifesto on our wall and before sleeping at night do a little ‘muhasabah diri’.I was thinking to do one myself,but I remembered my resolutions have never been finished,so instead of bothering myself to think and make up new stuff,I prefer to utilize my unfinished missions,insyaAllah To my kids,I owe you guys a sitting right?I’ll try to replace it as soon as possible,usrah’s can’t be postponed too long.tak elok …

Allah is with me,you and all of us.

Hadis Abu Hurairah r.a katanya:

Rasulullah s.a.w bersabda: Allah s.w.t berfirman: Aku adalah berdasarkan kepada sangkaan hamba-Ku terhadap-Ku. Aku bersamanya ketika dia mengingati-Ku. Apabila dia mengingatiKu dalam dirinya, nescaya aku juga akan mengingatinya dalam diri-Ku. Apabila dia mengingati-Ku dalam suatu kaum, nescaya Aku juga akan mengingatinya dalam suatu kaum yang lebih baik daripada mereka. Apabila dia mendekati-Ku dalam jarak sejengkal, nescaya Aku akan mendekatinya dengan jarak sehasta. Apabila dia mendekati-Ku sehasta, nescaya Aku akan mendekatinya dengan jarak sedepa. Apabila dia datang kepada-Ku dalam keadaan berjalan seperti biasa, nescaya Aku akan datang kepadanya dalam keadaan berlari-lari anak.

Allah is with me,you and all of us no matter what.

I wanted to start today with a such a sweet hadith qudsi.For me,the moment i hear this hadith being recited,its like a love letter from my lover,Allah.

Astaghfirullahal'azim.I would definitely have to remind myself to be pat…

happy birthday sissy

first of all,it's christmas eve guys!so i want everyone to smile the best they can and to put on their best behaviour ever,
its 24 december,I was wanting to do this whole heartedly,so I guess I would just simply say,Happy Birthday Ifah and May Allah bless you.

one two jus

suddenly on one fine morning,we were chanting

ola oli
ku beri nama
saudara saudari
chikaboom chikaboom
siang siang hari,malam malam hari
disco disco
putih putih melentik ali baba
merah merah menyala 
miow miow
siapa yang baik hati
tengok siapa yang kena

now after all those years,I get to conclude that,we were so childish at that time,besides how on earth could we chant something as preposterous as that!and if we sing it back now,its like uber hilarious and we would be cackling and rolling on the floor in no time!

today,PMR results were announced,and my friends who had brothers or sisters who sat for this year's PMR did excel these days are super excellent.

well,I'm not as allergic to the field now,as I do in the old days,at least I can profute water from my body and it makes me feel better,

last night's beauty class with miss zawani really made me thinking that I need to take care of myself better,jange bolo' sangat dih?

well then,I wanted to tell more,…

history repeats

I'm left behind,I need to buck up!!

Its hard when you don't want duniawi to linger you but whatever regarding duniawi is what people judge first.I'm in a class similar to 5f and my position is just like I used to be,the ones who need to be highlighted and taken care of,its like deja vu and very ironic,I feel surrounded by people who are magnificent and deserve the lime light,oh but then where am I?,Oh Allah,do I deserve India?do I deserve being a doctor?have I fulfilled being a full-time Muslim?

It's hard being in a group of those that knows everything and understand everything but I find myself  still bobbing up and down and clueless in what to do,Oh The Almighty,show me guidance,be with me ya Allah.

I find myself lost sometimes,I find myself embarassed and I find myself not worthful,remember! I have thousands of responsibility but I don't know which one have a catered yet.

I'm worried instead of being a muharikah,I'm a mayyit,my jasad is alive but my ruh …

menara bangsa

i survived throughout the whole camp

jika ditanya skala yang di beri untuk BTN tersayang ni,saya rasa akan berlaku fluctuation di sebabkan beberapa perkara,mainly sebab fasililtator yang kadangkala beremosi yang kadangkala menimbulkan emosi di dalam diri sendiri ditambah pula dengan penyampaian yang pada awalnya neutral bertukar menjadi berat sebelah di dalam sesetengah situasi,bukan jurulatih-jurulatihnya sebab pakcik-pakcik jurulatih sangatlah terbaik punya!kemudian faktor-faktor peribadi which i really don't want to start telling about,they're just a bunch of jerks,so never mind.

jika diberi peluang untuk pergi lagi saya mungkin akan berdalih,tapi kalau Allah izinkan saya untuk menuntut ilmu di luar negara lagi,saya mungkin terpaksa pergi lagi.aduhai.

sebenarnya saya tertarik untuk bercerita tentang beberapa perkara,

I'm so grateful for pak sameon because,he chose me to be the chairperson in one of the talks,and that is a good experience,I've always wa…


i want to go on a vacation not a silly training session!

and my ummi is chanting 'oh uniknya uniknya singapura!' along with una and maryam,oh snap, it just can't slip out of my head.

big picture

salamun'alaik to all/ as i mentioned in the previous post of how homesick i was,didn't i?well at that instant,i was at rumaisak and i was  left alone accompanied by rashidah and shazureen.well,anyway,to shorten the story,as i woke up from slumber the next day,we decided to join an intensive daurah that was made for folks who were on summer vacations from new zealand and australia.
so,after quite some time,we moved from bangi to putrajaya with kak aie.she drove all the way to botanic garden,putrajaya.
as i entered the botanic garden,subhanaAllah,it was a wonderful picturesque!as the four of us were heading to a hut,some group we running towards us,as they came closer,they panted,
"baru eh,jom la join kitorang,tak cukip sorang,"
and withour further ado,i joined running with them,with such a brief taaruf,i was told that they were attending an explorace and they already completed one checkpoint,there were four more to go.the clue was 'the journey begins here'
so we ran…

the rise of ummah

if a kid this big,could think  and given tarbiyyah as good as this its not long till  the rise of another salahuddin al ayyubi or even a rise of sultan mohammad  fateh AllahuAkbar

disclaimer:watch it until the end

status updates

Alhamdulillah,I just got back from jaulah muharikah in a superb but exhausting state.running across the country from johor,melaka,johor again and back to selangor was a uber cool!

but i feel homesick already,
i haven't seen my parents and siblings yet,
i want home.

still,i reminisce the moment i was feeling he soothingness of tangkak waterfall,subhanaAllah.its been ages since i get to jump and swim around in public,i thought i was too big for all these excitement,i guess i was wrong!

a perfect ending for an uber beginning

scrubbing  and scraping the dirt and germs off the panes in the toilet made me realise and white really have a different,and to think all this while , in front of our eyes,sins we do indeliberately or without noticing it, actually dirt our heart out!but how often do we clean this dear thing,how often do we reformat or scrape the bad things or easy said the 'jahilliyyah' out of the heart?

i always complain that i'm insufficient of knowlegde to spread the words of islam due to lack of 'filling up',but to one extent,i realise that i'm always with excuses,the predicament is within me,not with the knowledge gained.sometimes, it doesn't mean we need to go to a faraway land to gain experience,but just by climbing the hill of ktt gives you tarbiyyah that you don't often get!

and the moment we grab Allah's hidayah or we get that particular tarbiyyah,we need to spread the words of Islam straight away,that's why in our phase of life,we get …

3 down 1 more to GO!

i'm about to finish my exams and i can't wait to complete the whole of A-Levels(taking a deep breath),i don't know why,but everything is falling apart,and to think everything is going to be even more complex than complex number next semester,due to a grudge,taking care of people's heart and an incident,i now can't ask questions publicly,i don't belong to anyone,so don't chain me,and make my life a misery.

i'm so sorry,but this is killing me inside
i still need some time to think about last night's incident
i can't keep on bluffing myself but i am sad and devastated,but don't worry,i've forgiven you anyway,it's just that i need some space to think about it.

don't worry,i'm recovering and its true that i need to express what i really feel

apical dominance

instead of lullabies and songs is it possible to be replaced with zikr
instead of fairy tales and aesop's fable is it possible to be replaced with asbabun nuzul juz amma
instead of fancy dresses and shades is it possible to be replaced with shawls and abayas
instead of mummy and daddy is it possible to be replaced with ummi and abah
instead of a well-known profesionalist is it possible to be replaced by a full-time a da'ie

is there a chance for the rise of another umar al khattab salahuddin al ayyubi tariq ziad sultan muhammad al fateh
tiflun minal saudi
tiflun minal omman
bara'a wa samaa minal jordan
the brief time with you guys in masjidil haram made me ponder a few things,tiflun yang hebat dibentuk dari ummi yang hebat!
sesungguhnya bukan mudah untuk mendidik seorang imam shafi'e mahupun imam ghazali,sebagaimana offspring genotype follows its parents genotype,begitulah pembentukan anak yang faham addeen lahir dari seorang ummi yang faham addeen.
ini bukan satu kerja yang hasil…

love letter to my sister

dear ifah,
23rd november is your D-day right?i was once in your place,all freakish to enter the hall with nothing but yourself and Allah,i was once in you place scribbling here and there on the papers given by the lembaga peperiksaan,i was once in your place,feeling blunt and out of ideas,and sometimes gushing with ideas too,i was once in your place,screaming your heart out because you misunderstood a question or forgot to put a fullstop in a sentence,i was also once in your place,seeking blessings from teachers,parents and calling them nearly everyday to tell what happened,i was once in you place,where for once i felt totally gloomy to apart with friends and to actually leave school life! and now i end up here.
your a big girl now,big as can be,blooming as ever,i'm lucky to have you as a sister and no matter what happened between us,i love you so much ifah!(OMG i feel a prick in the eyes),i know we always have different taste and we always disagree but on top of it,its always precio…

the last call

my sister ifah is about to take her spm in less than a week and i am about to sit for my finals in less than a day!we'll certainly be busy these few days and months.

exams huh!

i used to be among those who would be scared to death when exam is like just in front of you and i would sacrfice my precious sleep to finish the unfinished,although i never end up finished after all.but now its different,after knowing You better, everything has slightly changed and distorted.

its not that i'm no more scared or i feel cosy enough to sit back and relax,thats void!but,you feel relieved when you know that Allah is your 'wakil' or easily said Allah is your Guardian.Just study,put some effort and leave the rest to Allah.

Ya Rabb,
forgive us,the weak,
enlighten us with your maghfirah and rahmah,
calm us and lead us to your road,
to you we believe and put our trust,
because from you we came and to you we are returning to
may we die as the syuhada'

an answer for a dilemma

hari ini usrah adik -adik lagi,dan seperti biasa,perasaan ini akan dibuai-buai oleh perasaan indah.SubhanaAllah,sungguh saya takut.takut sekiranya saya membuat usrah adik-adik kerana perasaan seronok bukan berpaksikan asbab ingin menyampaikan shahadah Allah.

astaghfirullah,izinkan saya beristighfar sebelum memulakan penceritaan saya.

perjalan mendaki bukit bermula sebaik sahaja semua menunaikan solat asar,kami berkumpul di laluan tengah antara tangga 7 dan library,setelah semua ahli ada,baru kami bergerak menaiki bukit,termengah-mengah dibuatnya,tapi saya sajalah kot,adik-adik sudah jauh kehadapan,tinggal kakak je di belakang,chaperone la katakan.anyway,we walked and paused several times because farah was having a headache and the sun was like right on top of us.we felt liked baked prawns because everyone was  red and we were walking halfway,adie's slipper got torn apart so she couldnt use it,and had to walk barefoot.pity her.all of us wanted to offer one of ours but s…
how on earth do you say 'No' to a question asked to you by someone,without hurting that someone.I'm sorry so much,I just can't act honest sometimes.I'm not strong you know!

dear yusof

this post is for you shakira!
take care of yusof and yourself too!
i'll try to be there for you but you know sebaik-baik penjaga is Allah,so seek Him and he'l know what to do!
trust me,love you!

aidiladha dessert!

Lunch was superb and delicious!blended with laughters and love,i was happy all along and the feeling of get together was expressed deeply,
we had
spagetti bolognese
mixed fruit cocktail
kek batik
fried mee hoon
lemang and lots of lemang with rendang
popia papa kown and mama ilan
orange juice
to top it all up,it rained!
hujan rahmat petang-petang raya katanya...

when I was small i always chanted with my friends

its raining,its pouring
the old man is snoring
he went to bed,and bumped his head
and never got up in the morning

and it was the good old days,
coming back to reality,i don't really bother when it rains to be frank,what i know is that,when it rains,its best to snuggle back in bed and have a nap!
a real long nap.

until,nad went to my house and was jumping back and forth,hopping happily and admiring the rain so much.she quickly opened the sliding door and looked beyond our verandah.

she was as quiet as mice and looking at the rain with such peace.i …