Tuesday, November 29, 2016

zikr di bibir

Aku masuk lift seusai kelas alquran. Dari tingkat atas, lift terbuka, dan dalamnya dah ada seorang aunty.


Slowly, i paced in. The lift slowly moved downwards, with an utter silence. Since it was a little squashy, i didnt know where else to look melainkan to the lady.


Dia terkumat kamit,

Zikir barangkali.


Aku tunduk, turut mahu menuturkan zikir from the back of my head. Inwas searching and searching until the lif reached ground floor.


Kami berdua keluar.


I wanted to ask her, but i had no guts. Dia dah berlalu sedikit jauh, when suddenly, i cried out,


Law samaht, enti bit ul eh ? 

(Excuse me maam, what were you saying back then)


A bit startled but managed to put on a smile, she replied,


Zikr.


I asked again,


Zikr eh?

(Zikir apa)


Ayyi haggah, subhanallah wa binhamdihi, SubhanAllahil 'azim, astaghfirullahil 'azim zay keddah.

(Apa sahaja ~)


I then carved a huge smile in reply,


Shukran!


'Afwan was the answer.


:')


Indah kan hidup bersyariat, berbumbungkan langit dan berlantaikan bumi yg sama,

Tiada yang membezakan melainkan taqwa itu. 


Allahu T-T.


"Tuhan, berilah aku kesempatan untuk perolehi segala permata-mata di ardhul kinanah ini, sebelum aku meninggalkannya kelak,


Ameen ya rabb.

Saturday, November 26, 2016

Expectation is the root of all heartache william shakespeare

nilai se'genih'

I was queuing up at the payment counter to pay the groceries I was buying in Fathalla Supermarket. In front of me, was a lady with two small boys, around the age of 8-10 years old. 

The cashier was deducting things from her which caught my attention. He took away, some yoghurts and recalculated the bill.It now showed 34 LE. The women opened the crumpled money in her hand, there was a 10 and 20 LE only. 

She slowly, took out from her cart, a packet of macaroni and the cashier recalculated again. This time, the amount reduced to 31 LE, but the cashier guy, with full understanding, told her to just pay and come again with the money. 

I couldnt stand to see such thing going on in front of me, it nearly sent me to tears, and then someone appeared suddenly, paying the ever so valuable 1 LE. The cashier didnt want to accept it saying that the woman would return again. But she insisted. And she left without saying a thing. It left me thinking. About both, the lady, the cashier and the someone. 

I cannot judge the woman with such small meet-up, but i could see how it was a struggle, going to the groceries with you kids, wanting this and that, when you know you have to buy or you are reserted to buy only what you can afford. Maybe the yoghurts were for her sons too 😭. But you just have to toughen up to withstand these high demands of life. 

The cashier on the other hand, is an empathic egyptian whom i always meet here in egypt. They already know that life aint easy, so they dont 'bully' or become arrigant among themselves. He accepted the fact that the woman didnt have enough money, to pay at that instant . He let her go, and get the money in her house, and then return to fathalla to pay the remaining amount.
I still remember a professor saying, if Egyptians come to the faculty late, i cant scold them, life is hard, you get caught in traffic jam no matter how early you get out. See, another example of tolerable citizens among themselves.

And then, the someone, such heroic and inspiring act. Silent but powerful, the person came and went, as if it was a message passed by the angels for us humans to tak it as a message. Be kind to others, you dont know that such small act can give such a big impact to a life of someone.

I went back that day, thinking, what small act that i can do, that actually gives an impact to someone's life? 

Allahu T-T



Friday, November 25, 2016

bara api

Tidak ku sangka, bara yang kononnya ku rasakan bara cinta,
Hanyalah tiupan dan siulan si syaitan durjana.

Hina dan kerdilkah aku,
Untuk dikau perkotak katikkan sebegitu sekali.

Malu tahu!

Betullah, kata firman Dia, 
Dalam rongga kita, tak mungkin ada dua hati,
Kerna mana mungkin ada yang selain Allah dalam hati,
Jangan kau tipu diri kau sendiri wahai manusia!

Dikau berjaket kulit, 
Gelap manis, 
Senyuman tak lekang dari bibir,
Bicaranya sentiasa atur,
Wibawa dalam setiap langkah,

Astaghfirullah,

Wahai ukhti,
Tunduklah!
peliharalah pandangan mu, 
agar hatimu terhijab dari panahan syaitan.

Memandang itu salah,
Di pandang juga salah.

Hati yang terus menerawang,
Akan kekal dalam jiwa yang kacau.

Kata si adik,
Sekejap sahaja,
Mainan syaitan belaka.

Tahan sekejap ya ukhti!

Akan ada yang memegang tangan mu kelak, bagi menjunjung agama Allah ini bersama mu, dan akan pimpinmu bersama si khalifah cilik yang di kau bakal lahirkan. 

Kalau bukan di syurga dunia, nun sana, di kampung kita, syurga akhirat. Berjirankan para saliheen yang lain.




Friday, November 11, 2016

Lately, I have been feeling weary. As if a dementor has sucked the soul out of me. Thus, I'm as if a walking corpse.

hey, has life been that bad?!

fast forward rewind.

what has been happening for the past few months?