Sunday, July 31, 2011

| what am I waiting for?





Sekian lama aku di jalan da'wah,
ku rasa himmah dan ketsabatan ku makin kendur
makin pudar dan semakin hilang serinya
kenapakah?
kenapakah...
seringkali aku ciptakan alasan di atas perangai aku sendiri
alasan 'tiada masa' , 'penat' , 'malu' sering diungkapkan oleh bibirku
maafkan aku ya tuhan
maafkan hambaMu yang lemah ini
pegang erat tanganku dan kemaskan hatiku untuk dituju kepadaMu Ya Allah
sesungguhnya , detik untuk aku tinggalkan syaaban sudah hampir , dan aku bakal menerima kehadiran cahaya Ramadhan tidak lama lagi,
amanahMu sentiasa diabaikan atau di ambil mudah
kini aku ingin menunaikan hak diri
untuk memegang erat amanah itu
sebagai khalifahMu dan sebagai abidMu

insyaAllah


hambaMu Aqeelah
shah alam
29 shaaban 1431

| peringatan seorang akhawat

‎'Aku ikut halaqah"
"Aku join usrah"
"Aku mendapat belaian tarbiah"
"Aku adalah akhwat!"

Mengapa bangga menyebut dirimu sebagai seorang akhwat?
Padahal kelakuanmu tak ubah seperti sampah,
Malas solat tahajud,
Solat wajib pun kau malas kerjakan,
Apatah lagi solat jemaah?
Ah, cuma mimpi,

Apatah lagi membaca surat cintaNya
Novel, cerpen atau komik lebih mengujakan,
Asyik dan menghiburkan,
Daripada membekalkan diri dengan buku-buku islami,

Benarkah kau sudah ditarbiah?
Kalau dengan lawan jenis, tidak terjaga muamalatnya
Matamu meliar, hatimu, ah, entah di mana..??

Dalam berdakwah, engkau memilih,
Menumpu pada yang lebih membawa kenikmatan,
Padahal dakwahlah yang harus digerakkan,

Dalam berdakwah, engkau memilih,
Lebih nikmat bertaushiyah dengan lawan jenis
Lagi-lagi dengan dalih dakwah
Padahal ramai rakan sejenismu
Lebih perlukan pada bimbinganmu

Bukanlah seorang akhwat, orang yang tidak menjaga lisannya,
Bukan juga yang tidak menjaga pandangan dan hatinya,
Dari yang diharamkan Allah,
Bukan juga orang yang begitu mudah mengeluh,
Padahal ia mempunyai Allah sebagai Pembelanya,

Apakah, engkau mengaku layak digelar seorang AKHWAT?
Sedang akhlaqmu tak seperti seperti dalam firman-firmanNya?

Benarkah engkau seorang akhwat?
Tapi engkau sungguh malas ber'dating' denganNya di malam hari?

Sekali lagi, kutanya kepadamu, AKHWAT kah dirimu?
Padahal amalanmu begitu ternoda dengan tujuan duniawi,
Engkau beramal untuk mengharapkan pujian dan balasan manusia,
Tidakkah malu berbuat begitu, wahai yang mengaku dirinya AKHWAT?

Apa yang kau lakukan saat ini?
Tika orang lain penuh keringat kerana berdakwah,
Dan lainnya letih mencegah mungkar,

Apa yang kau sudah buat?
Menjadi pengulas dakwah,
Atau turut laju menderu bersama aliran dakwah?

Lalu, wahai orang yang mengaku dirinya sebagai AKHWAT..
Di mana telah engkau buangkan hatimu untukNya?

Hei, bangkitlah! Bangunlah!
Sebelum ajal menjemputmu buat selamanya wahai akhwat..




Saturday, July 30, 2011

| Ramadhan the month of repenting



Dear Allah,


please accept me 




Yours sincerely,
Aqeelah


| 5 Before 5


i make a call for all those like me ,

who wants to make a change but can't quite find the key ,

who plans so much for tomorrow , and forget they have today ,

but , problem is , if we stick to this mentality our youth will actually decay ,

because the measure of youth is not by how old you are or how fast you can drive a car ,

but it is all in here , in your heart , and how much you can do , how much you can give , how much you can see through,

so , just by being young you don't redeem the noble status of youth

it is only given to those who truly deserves it

and that's the truth



Amal Ahmed Albaz


| I need you


I have my own battle,trying to control my nafs
I just sinned,and kept on sinning
I'm such an ungrateful servant
And all I can do is burst into tears :'(
I need someone,and I know that I need you Ya Allah
I need you badly

Ramadhan is approaching and instead of whining
I should be preparing
to recharge my imaan
so that I can meet you Ya Allah
in the Day of judgement
Oh Allah,
I need you badly

I'm sorry Ya Allah,
I'm taking for granted the chances I had
My nafs is out of control
and what do I do?
following my nafs bluntly instead of returning to you
my bad , Ya Allah
I'm repenting and I'm regretting
of my stupidity and misconceptions
will you forgive me Ya Allah
yes , please forgive me (whispering)
because
I just need you so badly


Friday, July 29, 2011

| a gift from Allah


she is islam , and I , am in love

falling deep down in love with her , I must say.

| a gift from Allah


she is islam , and I , am in love

falling deep down in love with her , I must say.

Monday, July 25, 2011

| a lovable ukhti



Sanah Helwah Ya Ukhti

Dearest Liyana,

I rarely do birthday greetings,but you are a little special *winks*
We've known each other for 2 solid years and it was a blast knowing the calm-and-quiet girl who actually seems to be a funky and loud lady!
I'm glad to know you more on this tarbiah road,
how the langkawi jaulah made me know you better and love you more.
Not to say my love is easy to get,but the love to you spills in my heart,that is the beauty when you love someone because of Him.
And every time we talk together you always give me advises that touches my heart,your blog posts are superb and your photographs are amazing.
All in all,I'm just glad to know you.

Until we meet again dear

Love Aqeelah.

Tuesday, July 12, 2011

| love is all around us

Salamun'alaik.

Out of the virus in the world,the most dangerous and preposterous virus is human's love.Love can make you go astray.Love can destroy a beautiful relationship.Love can just make you drive a way from reality.

But why do people fall for human's love .It's not eternity.It's surreal.

Love is unstoppable,but please,please dear sisters,love Allah first,and you will love all the people around you because of Him,inshaAllah.

ukhwah fillah

Saturday, July 2, 2011

| ana kamaan!

I'm here,standing,running,sitting,smiling,aywa,I'm here.

But where's my soul,it's here too.

Is it here?

I smile,I just don't feel the pleasure of smiling anymore.
I laugh,I just don't feel the satisfaction of laughing out loud.
I feel,enough to feel what is need to feel.

I think I'm going through a phase which is unidentified,growing up but the harder way,growing up with no auxin to make me grow vertically fast.
It's just that,I sometimes can't remember the old me.

But everything that happens around me is tarbiyyah.

Being here is a tarbiyyah.

And coming to think of it now,I can't stop the tears coming out whenever the Gaza issue comes up.Yes,I know we need to save our muslims there before this.I knew that,but I couldn't feel it,the sense of belonging with each other.

Now,I feel it,and I want to do loads of stuff,being a volunteer in the medical team to go there is one amongst the updated list of future plannings that I have.

I want to be a muslim doctor,for His sake.

Allahuakbar