Saturday, September 18, 2010

what is with this 20 number?

di kawasan kejiranan saya , ada kes meninggal dunia kerana sakit asma.kata abah , maybe it was due to overflooding of 'open house', so there is nearly all sorts of food and that can harm a person indirectly.tambah abah , especially nuts,nuts is a very dangerous food not all can eat nuts as much as they want.baiklah abah!
say no to nuts!
but ada informasi lagi yang buat aku terkesima.the guy was a UTP student in his second year.and he was 20.


oh yes i said it right , 20

and that is a big twenty!

but he is gone.

he no longer exists in this world full of sins and wahan.

innalillahi wainnailahi raji'un.


may Allah splash him with rahmah and maghfirah,InsyaAllah

personal predicaments

i was off to bed last night and before that I did some surfing on the web.I came across a friend of mine's page and got to know that she just tied the knot with some guy , somewhere.

she is just 20 fullstop

i repeat 20 and that is a big twenty!

I just got to be 19 a few days ago and in days less than 365,I will turn into this big 20 too!

the issue here is that,this lady in 20 has already got married,got a hubby,have to do her wife matters,cooking,cleaning,manage a family,study and a whole bunch of other thing wrapped in I tried putting myself in her shoes,but I shook my head in disbelief!

OMG! and that is a gigantic OMG!

I can't cook well,I'm not good in things like paying bills,buying lands,buying shares,sewing clothes,drive a car and the list is not that I can't but some of the things I mentioned are stuffs i never even did before.It's just that I'm totally not ready to become a wife or become my child's mother.

ok,maybe some will say,skills polish along the you grow,experiences teaches you to become a better person.

but still,can I do it?me?

Still,as i have entered tarbiyyah world,I need to do a whole tremendously sort of I step on the maratib amal,

individu muslim is definitely not settled yet to move on to baitul muslim

as I read blogs of akhawats,they do a lot of things before even thinking of managing a family.they sacrifice nearly their whole life devoted to Allah and spread the words of islam to others.they face various obstacles and being in tears is nearly a must.In daylight they do da'wah and at night,they will date with the One and only,Allah Azza wajalla.

Subhanallah,these akhawat really made me bear in mind to carry on my life as a da'ie onwards facing countless things and never rest or be on hiatus especially on useless occasions like entertainment and stuffs like that.

so the issue of marriage never arise,it's not true to say I'm too young for this issue,but it is reasonable to say,I have a long journey and I have a lot of things to be prepared.

in surah al balad,Allah has mentioned on the 10th verse

"bukankah kami telah menunjukkan kepadanya dua jalan (kebajikan dan keburukan)"

so I leave you and myself to keep on thinking where to head too and ensure that we lead the right path.InsyaAllah

ada ke orang kahwin pakai abaya hitam? am I allowed to wear it though?

Friday, September 17, 2010

situasi di plaza alam sentral
tingkat 3

'kak berapa harga fon ni?'
'dalam xxx tapi boleh kurang lagi dik'

akak tu pun promote bagai nak rak

I wasn't going to buy it anyway because I was just doing surveys on several phones,but then,suddenly out of the blue she offered to 'book' the phone,so I did and rupa rupanya kena bayar deposit.

without thinking,i agreed and just stupidly paid 50 ringgit

after going elsewhere I returned to that particular floor to find abah's charger,then i saw the same phone with such a cheaper price and best bargain.MasyaAllah,my feelings was mixed and I wanted to cry,so I went to that kakak's place

'akak saya nak cancel!'
'huh?dah tempah dah phone,tak boleh cancel'
'ala kak,kalau ye pon saya tak nak beli jugak!'
dia call and talked rubbish apa entah dengan boss dia
'ok dah settle tapi bagi balik 20 je'
'huh!kenapa tak semua'
'sepatutnya awak memang tak dapat balik deposit,burned habis'
'so tak bolehla 50 balik'
'tak boleh,20 je'

dunia business kotor!whats wrong with returning the whole thing.but it was my fault,she did say something about not returning the deposit money if there was any cancellation but still I was pissed off!ummi came to the rescue and still there was nothing that could be done.may that akak get her lesson somehow!

Thursday, September 16, 2010


one word posted to me!


I thought nobody cared!Until I opened facebook.So many did care!For the time being,I guess my problem was that I'm a little old fashionist!I thought people wished birthday through phones, instead they use technologies,through facebook.Silly me,and to think I thought nobody cared.

It still counts!

It enlightened my day after having such a dull and rough one.

Thanks to all those who remembered me,I know on facebooks there are reminder and stuffs of people's birthday,but to actually post on my wall and say

Happy Birthday !

really puts a smile on my face =)

Jazakillah to all who did!

I know I'm making such a big fuss of my birthday,but it doesn't matters to me.It truly does.

Wednesday, September 15, 2010

I noticed that as years passes by,Raya is not as meaningful as it used to be.But I always thought that birthdays last for ever.

until just now.

I'm definitely not complaining,but you have to bear with people not noticing its your special days and that people are busy having Raya celebrations to care about a minor event like my special day.

It is then that you know,Oh you really don't have as much friends as you think you do,and people care less to you than you think they do.

But I had a blast even though today was spent nearly three quarters on the road,because we returned to Shah Alam today,but besides I got loads of hugs and kisses from ummi and abah,uncles and aunts and my sisters.some friends did bother,I love you all!

Anyway,it is just a normal day to others,they don't bother,why should I?

Happy Birthday to me!

deep down inside,I don't care and the heart is scratched for the zillionth time.

Tuesday, September 14, 2010

the following days of eid

 this was actually during ramadhan,but i wanted to play bunga api too!

3rd syawal, this is alia tasnim during walimatul urus ayah yob.

 eventhough i'm not those who are creative,but i tried to be as creative as possible!
thank god i din't choose this as a career.

 took a picture near the hantarans,the theme was pink but it didn't turn out as pink as i thought.

this was during 4th syawal,we wanted to take a family picture,but we ended up taking it in the car,this was taken by Maryam herself so kudos to her because it did turn out as a something,didn't it?

Sunday, September 12, 2010

suatu hari di hari raya

it is third 3rd syawal and its good to be in wakaf bharu!after several obstacles,bateri kering,tayar pancit and so on so forth,we reached kampong at last.i got to hug nenek,aunts,ifah,una,yam and ahmad and hirup soup gearbox!best tahap teragiga!

here are a few pictures throughout the 10 days.

 getting on MAS Airlines to jeddah

 arrived at jeddah around six thirty pm local time

 our 'fondok' at medina

 the gate we always use to enter masjidil nabawi

 plastic bags with clothes and daily uses for those who 'iktikaf' at the masjid which are hanged at the gates

 perkuburan baqi'

 SubhanaAllah! the Baitullah

 ticktock the tallest tower on earth!

 on Kuwait Airways back to Malaysia

anyway,I'll guess I'll just put out the pictures before I go on telling the tales i've been having in the most magnificent and holy country,Kingdom of Saudi Arabia.Loads of things happened!so for the time being,a big thanks to those who wished me from ktt,pc'e,farah,raihan,aishah,tya and also those i didn't mention here.Lots of love to you all and Eid Mubarak!

Love and Kisses from big Sis