Tuesday, November 29, 2011

| mother town

ummi and abah has safely reached malaysia,when will my time be?
will there be a chance for me anyway?

Monday, November 28, 2011

| Ahmad the great

I opened facebook and happened to see my little brother online,which was a total surprise.And so I decided to chat.

He was in Kelantan,and he was ranting about slow internet,cats running away from him and stuff,so I told him to help nenek in the kitchen,and innocently he answered,nenek doesnt want his help and atuk was always in front of the television,and he added, all he could do was sleep for 48 hours,

ahmad ahmad,*shaking head*

I then mentioned about food,I asked whether the food nenek cooked was delicious and he couldnt deny it,I mean, who could ever win over my nenek right?

and before we ended the whole chitchat,I told him to be patient since he sometime become outrageous when he wants everything to go his way,

he's such a darling actually,he loves his family dearly and could cry over small things if it came to family matters,he could be an incredible hulk when his moodiness gets in the way, but once he's adorable,no one would have the heart to scold him.

i miss my only brother,Ahmad,

he will always be inside my heart,always!

Saturday, November 26, 2011

| inilah dunya

'Orang yang melakukan dosa di dunia, dia tidak akan dapat ketenteraman dan ketenangan.Meskipun lahiriah nampak senang, mampu makan apa sahaja makanan yang diingini,mampu tinggal di mana sahaja yang dikehendaki, namun selama dia belum sampai kepada keyakinan dan petunjuk maka hatinya akan sentiasa gelisah, bingung, ragu dan masih ragu, ini ialah kehidupan yang sempit'

Ibn Kathir

a mother's love , a son's care

| maal hijrah 1433

hijrah is a fresh start,
from total darkness, we trash the old unwanted memories,
for a whole new start.

from being the old person who used to wake up late
into a better person who utilizetime more efficiently

from being someone who only cared for herself
to someone who cared less for herself but more to others,
and also to those who are in need

its not the matter of things happening to you,
but its more to whats happening inside you!

take care of the delicate heart
and cherish it by loving our Creator and al habib

Wednesday, November 23, 2011

| The Quest for Meaning , TR

and not to answer, is the answer : tariq ramadhan

the ultimate quest,playing in our minds,recited by our mouths and desired by the heart, finding the peace.

p/s : this is for lyana , remember the moments we share words of tariq ramadhan :) and to akhawats out there, its our job to find the answer and ask the same questions to other people too.

rabbuna yunaggah :)

| hizb an nuur

Il intikhabaat is coming up this 28th,and a lot of things are going through my mind over and over again.Will Misr still be Misr as it is?

Please pray for the us in Egypt ,

Rabbuna Yusahhil InshaAllah

Friday, November 18, 2011

| the 4th generation

ifah sent a message just as i was about to start class,maryam got straight As for her UPSR! and she was crying happily back at home.

dear allah,

knowing maryam,she really deserves it.she loves school,she's so innocent and straightforward,she listens to peoples advices and she rarely opposes back.she is special in her way and the best part is,she never forgets people.She is a home person,so neat and tidy,and scolds them who leaves dirty trails near her bed!

she wakes up earlier than everyone,and she's not the shopping type,she will constantly recite the quran even though she's a manga fan,but it all adds up to perfectness,

Im just glad I have her,mabrouk alayk sister :)

Monday, November 14, 2011

| Especially for you, Una

on october 26th,una sent me a message through facebook,but silly me,i didnt seem to notice it until now,what have I been doing all these while?

today,una is going through a big examination,SPM!I know Ive already passed the examination two years ago,but with parent still in mecca for hajj,big sisters at universities and all alone there in dungun,its saddening and depressing.

i still remembered how i cried tearfully with ummi through the phone when i saw parents after parents seeing their children,but mine never coming.so everytime i called ummi,i would cry till i couldnt speak,and ummi tried to calm me down but it failed,i was helpless and restless,until one day, a blue honda city came into the school compartment,abah came to see me, all the way from shah alam!

and i think una feels the same,but she's just okay,i think so.and to me,she is so tough,the toughest among us all i suppose!

I miss una,and the fact that people keep mistaking me with her,makes me feel more attached to this dearest sister of mine.

Dear Una,

Examinations are a norm,we always go through 'exams' in our life,or we rather name it as 'tests',either to wake up early,to be a little more hardworking,to do more ibadah and etc,the difference is,now you are undergoing a big examination more to the dunya,SPM,its going to wrap up your school years,so enjoy the days while it last,dont just be with books,make sure to spend time with Allah,friends and most important,give yourself a break from time to time,

During the examinations,dont be nervous and act as cool,as cool as you have always been :),if you think you cant remember a term,or a formula,or a word,say zikr in your heart,and know that,we always forget stuffs,so we return back ourself to Allah since He remembers and knows every single thing.

And after the exams,dont go pondering the mistakes you think you had done and dont discuss them back,but its not wrong to chit chat about them,

most important,just dont be too hard to yourself,

you are genius and genuine and i put full trust on you,

take care dear sister nabiela husna,

and deepest apologies for the late reply.

Love Aqeelah

Sunday, November 13, 2011

| there's a reason why we live,thank you ummi and abah for trusting me

I use to have that small hesitation whether Egypt is the right place to go,and believe it or not for the first couple of weeks here,I still had that mindset.

its not easy to be on your own and act as if nothing ever happened for these past two years,and the KTT days were nothing,absolutely preposterous,KTT was the most memorable place on earth,until now.

Amazing sahabat,happy 'bulatan gembira' and the list continues,and I think I have been blogging and reposting the memories during my KTT days,and maybe some might say,

'come on,grow up,go move on!'

But inshaAllah,inshaAllah,inshaAllah,Allah hears every single whispers,intuition and knows every tears slowly running down the cheeks.

Knowing that my friends are still with me,eventhough they are no where in Egypt,but they are all safely kept in my heart, Im glad to Allah,He gave me great sahabats,alhamdulillah :)
Thank you Allah.

Friday, November 11, 2011

| November the eleventh

such a nice date,I just realised that,

11 11 11

love from peter and paul

| a new misr

is this the sign for a better misr?lets pray for the best of the ummah.
biladil misr!

taken from our balcony

Thursday, November 10, 2011

| langit ilahi

awan yang berarak
mengisi jiwa yang sedang berduka lara
mengundang seribu kenangan
bersama mereka yang mencipta memori

langit yang terbentang luas
yang membuktikan agungnya penciptaNya
menginsafi diri hamba yang lemah tidak berdaya
untuk sentiasa mencapai redha ilahi

itulah langit ilahi

Wednesday, November 9, 2011

| tracing the footsteps of Al-Habib

shine your mercy like the sun, and be gracious as the earth

let your kindness come like rain that cares not whom it falls upon
and let ocean deep your wisdom be, your heart and lanterns spreading peace
give yourself in love of him, be like al-habib

and in your deepest needs and in your deepest grieve, call on him in humility
place your trust in the one, to whom creation turns
you'll find redemption and find peace

be a blazing fire of truth, be a soothing balm of peace
with the light of your sincerity, break the clouds of tyranny
let your faith be like a blessed tree, give your shade to all who seek
may your roots run true and deep, take your strength from al-habib

and all the certainty will bring tranqulity, contentment with allah's decree
give thanks for all that comes, be patient and know that someday you will return to him

hold fast to the company of the folk of certainty
through the gaze and through your love for them,
may you be as one of them
be as gentle as the whispering breeze, spread solace to the world we're in
let your heart and soul be mirror clear, give life and love to al-habib

and stand before allah like nothing else exists, and worship him like you are seen
be with all creation and all your deeds and words
as though you have no self to clean

for my akhawats,

yes I miss all of you,
yes I miss the moments we were together,remembering Him together and reminding ourselves because of Him,
yes I miss the time we laughed and cried together,the moment we fought because of misunderstandings,and how we always had trips outside,going out to see Allah's creation using our hearts,eyes, and ears.

for my dearest sisters in czech republic,

adilah,jawahir,maryam,nabila,amanina,azila and azira,
the biah there,its amazing,i've heard tonnes of stories there and I hope that all of you bring back something for us,be a superb da'ie and lets repent the world full of misery to a world full of happiness inshaAllah.

for adilah,
yes its true,we had rough moments once in a while,and when you love someone and you start feeling attached to one another,you easily get mad in the slightest movement one makes,I'm sorry and guilty in making you mad,and at the same time,Im just glad you are happy as can be,surrounded by wonderful sisters there,send my love to them dear.

for my dearest sisters in India,

to name some lyana,wanee,nad,miza,ilan,kown,athai,hazlin,reen,mimi,izzati,nadiah,harisah,mayang,ayuni and loads more ,
the land of maududi is adventurous,go explore the world and spread the words of Islam,part of me is still with the rest of you,since our sisters are mainly in india,but im trying to purify my niyah just for the sake of Him and to accept what has been stated for me,to learn to accept.

for lyana,yes I do remember our talk on your bed,I miss moments,spending my time with ukhti,but my dear,I guess you are going through a hard time too,and its easy to say,dont worry unless I put myself in your shoes,its not easy,but only we can make things easier by accepting everything happening around us with a sincere heart,I love you ukht.

for miza,thank you for loving and being loved,a big big big thank you and a big hug is all i want to give to you right now!

for my dearest sisters in Indonesia,

athina,afiqah and little hazirah,
may magical moments given by Allah for you there happens to soothes you,we are never alone,and dont forget to seek from Him,since he is the Giver and he is the Acceptor,so just ask for anything and Allah will grant happiness for you.

for athina I must say that yes,its been a rough start,but rough starts is like a must,especially on this road,and reading your comment really make my eyes start to water,yes,I feel useless and hopeless,I forgot that Allah was always beside me and my beloved sisters we always hand in hand to support each other,jazakillah ukht

for my dearest sisters in malaysia,

elis,lily,syamim,ida and the kakak2, to be precise kak ain abas,kak ain samad,kak maziah,kak arifah
we met because the sake of Allah and the bond gets stronger as the distance becomes longer,all those happy circles we made is carved in my heart waiting for its owner to start appreciating all that is happening around it.how grateful i was to even be known of tarbiah itself,alhmadulillah.

elis said,we want to be special in front of Allah's eyes,so we have to act extraordinarily,and the moment she said those beautiful words in front of me, my eyes started watering,I want to be special in front of Allah,I do, I do.

we all do.

so, dear sisters,be like al habib,to be special in front of Allah,follow the traces of our Rasulullah and inshaAllah , we will be loved deeply by our Creator.

I miss Rasulullah,and to be remembered by him is an honour, thank you so much dear Rasulullah.

yet when you master all of this, forget not your neediness
were it not for allah's grace, none of this can be achieved
so be humble as the lonely earth, that all creatures walk up on
be the slave of the most merciful, take your light from al habib

so shine your mercy like the sun, send your light across the earth
let your kindness flow like rivers, quench the thirst of all who come
and let mountain strong your spirit be, let your heart melt out of love for him
take the road that leads to him, may you be with al-habib

food galore #egypt

Wahba,the all time favourite spot,especially for the mara students staying in the hostel.the people's choice is more to bread with and addition of lahm(beef) or firah(chicken) and the list goes on.


at ya halla , and eating beriyani rice which is the most delicious cuisine serving arabic food!

the tazag , a fast food restaurant.

chocolates and sweets

welatain an alternative for kfc,their chicken is the best,and they even have a bread which is a sandwich with turkey as long as 50 cm!

at coffee roastery and had orio madness with a dish of seafood and white sauce which was unbearably good!

zalabiah wa shokalatah and ice creams near falaky centre.

camel meat , the recent menu for eiduladha,
happy eiduladha to all!

Monday, November 7, 2011

the fact that you just made my heart jolted scares me.your cool act adores me.walking in front of us like a guardian angel,glancing back once a while to check whether we are okay,passing through those creepy arab guys calmly,and concerned whether or not we know where we are heading.and lastly when we wanted to pay you back,you refused and asked us to pray du'a for you.
and there you go,you just melted my heart.
is everyone as frank as you or are you one in a million.

astaghfirullah...im scared of these preposterous feelings.indeed i am.

Thursday, November 3, 2011

| uncertainties

In the name of the most gracious the most merciful.
My heart is flipping and doing somersaults,I dont feel calm.
My heart aches and tears seem to be running down my cheeks easily,
I cant seem to be solving the jigsaw puzzles in my life.

I used to be the girl who was all bubbly and smiling here and there,
i think I still do it, but I dont feel the sincerity nowadays.

My friends seem to be happy and I m glad for them.

But sadly,I dont feel the happiness.

Ya Rabb,
You gave me everything and yet I can't seem to be grateful enough.
Please forgive me.

My days here are becoming messier and messier,I wake up so late and take my bath.Then,if I'm lucky enough I get to go to class with the girls.

i still cant blend in,Im trying,I am,please dont look down on me,Im trying.

And if I'm not,i'll go to class all alone,from the asrama,I'll walk all the way to mahattah raml(train station raml),and hop on to stop at mahattah gama'ah,and again i'll walk again to muassah(our current universiti).
And the journey is uber far!

and when you are alone,the journey becomes even more further.

and when I come back home,I'll be restless and do stuff that usually leads me in doing unnecessary things,i used to say to a besties of mine,
"maybe you should reduce in making excuses and make a move"

and right now,Im doing it.

so right after school,i return home or go and visit friends and end up the night at theirs.but the routine is the same,and my ruhiyy feels tired.

I feel like im stranded on an island , and right now,it raining heavily.How I wish, I could run to that someone,embrace that person and cry my heart out.

and I would love to do that with my Creator.