amalgamation of thoughts

ummi and abah has safely reached malaysia,when will my time be? will there be a chance for me anyway?

I opened facebook and happened to see my little brother online,which was a total surprise.And so I decided to chat. He was in Kelantan,and he was ranting about slow internet,cats running away from him and stuff,so I told him to help nenek in the kitchen,and innocently he answered,nenek doesnt want his help and atuk was always in front of the television,and he added, all he could do was sleep for 48 hours, ahmad ahmad,*shaking head* I then mentioned about food,I asked whether the food nenek cooked was delicious and he couldnt deny it,I mean, who could ever win over my nenek right? and before we ended the whole chitchat,I told him to be patient since he sometime become outrageous when he wants everything to go his way, he's such a darling actually,he loves his family dearly and could cry over small things if it came to family matters,he could be an incredible hulk when his moodiness gets in the way, but once he's adorable,no one would have the heart to sc

'Orang yang melakukan dosa di dunia, dia tidak akan dapat ketenteraman dan ketenangan.Meskipun lahiriah nampak senang, mampu makan apa sahaja makanan yang diingini,mampu tinggal di mana sahaja yang dikehendaki, namun selama dia belum sampai kepada keyakinan dan petunjuk maka hatinya akan sentiasa gelisah, bingung, ragu dan masih ragu, ini ialah kehidupan yang sempit' Ibn Kathir

a mother's love , a son's care

hijrah is a fresh start, from total darkness, we trash the old unwanted memories, for a whole new start. from being the old person who used to wake up late into a better person who utilizetime more efficiently from being someone who only cared for herself to someone who cared less for herself but more to others, and also to those who are in need its not the matter of things happening to you, but its more to whats happening inside you! take care of the delicate heart and cherish it by loving our Creator and al habib

and not to answer, is the answer : tariq ramadhan the ultimate quest,playing in our minds,recited by our mouths and desired by the heart, finding the peace. p/s : this is for lyana , remember the moments we share words of tariq ramadhan :) and to akhawats out there, its our job to find the answer and ask the same questions to other people too. rabbuna yunaggah :)

Il intikhabaat is coming up this 28th,and a lot of things are going through my mind over and over again.Will Misr still be Misr as it is? Please pray for the us in Egypt , Rabbuna Yusahhil InshaAllah

ifah sent a message just as i was about to start class,maryam got straight As for her UPSR! and she was crying happily back at home. dear allah, alhamdulillah. knowing maryam,she really deserves it.she loves school,she's so innocent and straightforward,she listens to peoples advices and she rarely opposes back.she is special in her way and the best part is,she never forgets people.She is a home person,so neat and tidy,and scolds them who leaves dirty trails near her bed! she wakes up earlier than everyone,and she's not the shopping type,she will constantly recite the quran even though she's a manga fan,but it all adds up to perfectness, Im just glad I have her,mabrouk alayk sister :)

on october 26th,una sent me a message through facebook,but silly me,i didnt seem to notice it until now,what have I been doing all these while? today,una is going through a big examination,SPM!I know Ive already passed the examination two years ago,but with parent still in mecca for hajj,big sisters at universities and all alone there in dungun,its saddening and depressing. i still remembered how i cried tearfully with ummi through the phone when i saw parents after parents seeing their children,but mine never coming.so everytime i called ummi,i would cry till i couldnt speak,and ummi tried to calm me down but it failed,i was helpless and restless,until one day, a blue honda city came into the school compartment,abah came to see me, all the way from shah alam! and i think una feels the same,but she's just okay,i think so.and to me,she is so tough,the toughest among us all i suppose! I miss una,and the fact that people keep mistaking me with her,makes me feel more attached t

I use to have that small hesitation whether Egypt is the right place to go,and believe it or not for the first couple of weeks here,I still had that mindset. its not easy to be on your own and act as if nothing ever happened for these past two years,and the KTT days were nothing,absolutely preposterous,KTT was the most memorable place on earth,until now. Amazing sahabat,happy 'bulatan gembira' and the list continues,and I think I have been blogging and reposting the memories during my KTT days,and maybe some might say, 'come on,grow up,go move on!' But inshaAllah,inshaAllah,inshaAllah,Allah hears every single whispers,intuition and knows every tears slowly running down the cheeks. Knowing that my friends are still with me,eventhough they are no where in Egypt,but they are all safely kept in my heart, Im glad to Allah,He gave me great sahabats,alhamdulillah :) Thank you Allah.

this is maryam haaziqah,my sister this is ahmad nabhan fikriey,my brother

such a nice date,I just realised that, 11 11 11 love from peter and paul

is this the sign for a better misr?lets pray for the best of the ummah. biladil misr! taken from our balcony

awan yang berarak mengisi jiwa yang sedang berduka lara mengundang seribu kenangan bersama mereka yang mencipta memori langit yang terbentang luas yang membuktikan agungnya penciptaNya menginsafi diri hamba yang lemah tidak berdaya untuk sentiasa mencapai redha ilahi itulah langit ilahi

shine your mercy like the sun, and be gracious as the earth let your kindness come like rain that cares not whom it falls upon and let ocean deep your wisdom be, your heart and lanterns spreading peace give yourself in love of him, be like al-habib and in your deepest needs and in your deepest grieve, call on him in humility place your trust in the one, to whom creation turns you'll find redemption and find peace be a blazing fire of truth, be a soothing balm of peace with the light of your sincerity, break the clouds of tyranny let your faith be like a blessed tree, give your shade to all who seek may your roots run true and deep, take your strength from al-habib and all the certainty will bring tranqulity, contentment with allah's decree give thanks for all that comes, be patient and know that someday you will return to him hold fast to the company of the folk of certainty through the gaze and through your love for them, may you be as on

Wahba,the all time favourite spot,especially for the mara students staying in the hostel.the people's choice is more to bread with and addition of lahm(beef) or firah(chicken) and the list goes on.          shawarma   at ya halla , and eating beriyani rice which is the most delicious cuisine serving arabic food! the tazag , a fast food restaurant. chocolates and sweets welatain an alternative for kfc,their chicken is the best,and they even have a bread which is a sandwich with turkey as long as 50 cm! at coffee roastery and had orio madness with a dish of seafood and white sauce which was unbearably good! zalabiah wa shokalatah and ice creams near falaky centre. camel meat , the recent menu for eiduladha, happy eiduladha to all!

the fact that you just made my heart jolted scares me.your cool act adores me.walking in front of us like a guardian angel,glancing back once a while to check whether we are okay,passing through those creepy arab guys calmly,and concerned whether or not we know where we are heading.and lastly when we wanted to pay you back,you refused and asked us to pray du'a for you. and there you go,you just melted my heart. is everyone as frank as you or are you one in a million. astaghfirullah...im scared of these preposterous feelings.indeed i am.

In the name of the most gracious the most merciful. My heart is flipping and doing somersaults,I dont feel calm. My heart aches and tears seem to be running down my cheeks easily, I cant seem to be solving the jigsaw puzzles in my life. I used to be the girl who was all bubbly and smiling here and there, i think I still do it, but I dont feel the sincerity nowadays. My friends seem to be happy and I m glad for them. But sadly,I dont feel the happiness. Ya Rabb, You gave me everything and yet I can't seem to be grateful enough. Please forgive me. My days here are becoming messier and messier,I wake up so late and take my bath.Then,if I'm lucky enough I get to go to class with the girls. i still cant blend in,Im trying,I am,please dont look down on me,Im trying. And if I'm not,i'll go to class all alone,from the asrama,I'll walk all the way to mahattah raml(train station raml),and hop on to stop at mahattah gama'ah,and again i'll walk a