Saturday, January 30, 2010

plucking the petals on a flower

a few seconds ago, i was in a total dilemma.to go or not to go,to go or not to go.finally,i was determined and had decided.i was going.and now i'm here, in a beautiful mosque in uniten,bangi.tomorrow is going to be a blast(insyaAllah).i can't wait for it and i hope Allah will bless us.i don't have the energy to type the event yet and tell you more since it is very late and yet i haven't taken my sleep.i am at the brink of exhaustion since i have way passed my bedtime,nonetheless i hope i won't pass out.(thats a total fib).
off to bed.

Friday, January 29, 2010

the call

there's so much to be compiled this week,i don't think i'll manage to organize it as neatly as i think i can.i'll just blurt out ,whatever i think i want to say!first,i went on a picnic with my family,everyone was there!!!ummi,abah,ifah,yam and ahmad.una dear i know you couldn't come due to classes.but we'll have fun some other time,ok?well,back to the story again,ummi came with a basket full of delicous and appealing meals!we ate steamed chicken with rice,crabs,mini pizzas, and honey dew finished the day.it made me reminisce the days in pasir puteh,where i never went to picnics nor even went outings with my family.but i understood at that time it was due to distant predicaments.we went strolling near the rivers,captured a few shots,well i guess tonnes of them...credits to ifah and abah.and it was ended by a heroic act from me.we were jumping from stones to stones,and maryam kind of let her slipper loose from her feet,and the slipper drifted a way with the water,she panicked and didn't know what to do.so my dad was starting to get angry,but i managed to run to the other side of the river and rab a twig,fiddle with the slipper that was stuck on the brink of the river...and i got it!yeay! alhamdulillah.i wish there was picnic ,part 2!nonetheless,i got my baby back.she was looking smashing as ever.and i felt like i was given a new start.totally!that wasn't fully true but then again,i really missed my baby and using una's samsung was bugging me all weak,with no features and the difficulty of pressing the keypads,i won't see samsung so much after this i hope.well,then examinations over,and i never knew i did that bad for maths.i missed a few questions,got stuck on several and the rest remains history.i still remember ummi's words telling me,'qelah took maths as a back up right?but then , why is it scaring you off?'OMG i was dumbstruck,what my mum said was absolutely true,but that was way before pure maths was damn tougher than additional mathematics!well,i still don't see how its difficult but i'm having troubles coping with it.i'm off wandering how to repair the flaws in maths and to still take care of the other subjects welfare.i won't leave you guys.but i must say,before exams,i did concentrate too hard on physics and kind of missed the others,but it won't happen again.tuitions.money is flowing like fluids.who knew tuition fees cost a fortune? but i must say chemistry tuition is making me head over heels.i'm so into organic chemistry now and i think i love it more than the previous one,physical chemistry.with mechanisms to remember and analysing whether it has a chiral carbon or not or determining which way is trans and which way is cis.and now i'm stuck in my apartment scribbling on my blog.i'll be attending a convention in uniten,regarding the thought of as-syahid imam hassan al banna,and i'll dash back home to wrap up the weekends.everything will be normal by next week.fullstop. can't wait for another boring chapter in ktt.

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

open your eyes,the sign is all around you


ad deen is directly proportional to science

i guess,to say i 'live in my own world' is quite true.i'm not that keen to actually read the newspapers,daily.what a bummer isn't it?i love to keep everything to myself and not now what is happening around me.(that was an ultimate lie!)the point is,i'm just lazy enough to flip through the papers.i'm trying though,and sometimes i end up screening through the titles and making my own self judgement.well,for me it was quite miraculous to actually read the newspapers daily for the pass few weeks,although not thoroughly yet,it still counts doesn't it?and fortunately,living in this world which is evolving day by day,keeping up with the world is necessary.i was just reading papers in the library when i came through an eye-catching article.it said the islam and science correlated with each other.the first part was explanations on how science and technology evolved day by day from 2G,GPRS,3G and now 4G.everything related to human kind was changing.either becoming more pathetic or super duper beneficial,every fields were finding solutions and resolutions to make this world a better place.in the medical field,scientist are battling against weird diseases and although it is quite helpless to cure infectious disease like AIDs,malaria and what so ever,due to their antigenic shift and concealment,yet the doctors and scientists aren't giving up,thats why a lot of drugs that suppress the HIV and malaria are being used for the time being,because to actually find a true cure is near to impossible.but who knows,we might be the next in line to actually find the solution with Allah's help.so we can see that science actually relates back at us.as a muslim,we will always turn for the Al-Quran and Hadith to guide us in life.Allah has mentioned about
 how the galaxy actually moved in a 'floating' way.(yaasin:40),how the earth twirled on its axes,about the smallest thing on earth is an atom,how altitudes affect the partial pressure oxygen which leads to trouble i breathing and the list goes on and on.so all in all,the sign given by Allah in the Al_quran is tremendously a lot.so it is our job to show that islam is directly proportional to science ,thus hypothesis is acceptable.

36:40
Sahih International
It is not allowable for the sun to reach the moon, nor does the night overtake the day, but each, in an orbit, is swimming.
Tafsir al-Jalalayn
It does not behove — it is [neither] facilitated nor is it right for — the sun to catch up with the moon, and so appear together with it at night, nor may the night outrun the day, and thus it [the night] never arrives before the latter ends and each (kullun: the nunation compensates for the [missing] genitive annexation [that would have been constructed] with al-shams, ‘the sun’, al-qamar, ‘the moon’, and al-nujūm, ‘the stars’) [of these] is in an orbit, swimming, moving — these [celestial bodies] are being treated as [though they were] rational beings.









Tuesday, January 12, 2010

there is not much time left

tick tock tick tock
the clock is striking 1900 hours on december 12th,yet I still show no sign of utilizing the time for my AS this coming may.OMG!but i'm slowly pacing my steps and getting use to the fact that i will face the exam by hook or by crook,insyaAllah.my biology lecturer asked the class representative to do a countdown before the D-day,and gosh i couldn't believe my ears hearing there's still left approximately 120 days to go.suddenly,tummy does back-flips and stuff and my heart is pounding extraordinarily fast.is something coming up?i hope it's nothing bad.
looking back at my watch and counting every second and every minute.

Saturday, January 9, 2010

never ending issue.

a weekend in your lonely apartment at an isolated college is quite irksome.i mean the quietness really gets on your nerves!nevertheless the environment still builds up my spirits to put some endeavor to finish my long never lasting list of topics to cover.i try to sit back,close my eyes,heave a sigh of blissfulness and start sorting out my plans for the weekend.exams are just around the corner,you can almost see it!its less then a fortnight and i still haven't got everything settled down completely.i need to revise back the topics during the first semesters.do loads of past years questions.and just keep on doing it.i must say,being alone does make you idle and sometimes you realise you are drifted in another complete different world.but it won't be long till you step back in reality.i must go now.nature is calling and i have a big responsibility to do!oh my god,this sure is a never ending issue...

Friday, January 8, 2010

i don't know what happened to me just know.i trembled and tears trickled down my cheeks.i was not surprised at all,to know no one was looking.but i feel as if i'm in the darkest pitch hole ever.sitting alone with no one to lend their ears to hear what i say.i got ditched by my own friend and i feel horribly pissed off.i don't think she holds the idea of friendship very well.stared blankly at the papers in front of me.i haven't got a clue what to do?start from scratch?start doing past years?renewing and solidify the concepts.again,i easily misunderstand situations.don't bother me.

until i knock some senses in myself~

Thursday, January 7, 2010

never leave till tomorrow what you can do today

-benjamin franklin


p/s procastination has never been an ultimate solution nor a destination!

nonstop full stop

it's way past midnight,and i definitely know there is nothing to worry when i'm no cinderella to be back at home before the clock strikes 12.but there's a major predicament here.i have just got back in my cosy apartment from my friend,leen's house.by the way,we're just neighbours. never mind that.what i meant to say is ,whenever i start opening my jaw and sound coming out from my larynx,i get really intrigued when having conversation with people,and the next thing i know,is that i had just spent a few hours talking.there's never a full stop once i start!and every minute that passes through really is a waste if you spend it unwisely,like someone just did!it's good to have a chat,but having long conversations really aren't a good lifestyle for us.why?the conversations will end up,talking about people behind there backs,sometimes giving ferocious remarks of people's appearance or attitude and the list goes on.so in the end,there's definitely no output.because the input itself is nought!it's preposterous because when i try and reflect back what i talk about, sometimes it's about minute and negligible matters.i guess,thats the problem that arises the moment you know how to jumble up words and create sentences which leads of longer words to pronounce and end up talking nonstop.i have been blabbering since little and have never failed to reach the finishing line.hooray me!so until then,i just hope i get to control myself and only talk when i need to.i'm wondering whether i would even a minute, by keeping myself quiet and all to myself.i think its in my genes.and the alleles of being a chatterbox are dominant alleles.well,thats it for now.enough blabbering and buck up for upcoming event,the mid semester examinations. oh no!






shoot for the moon,if you miss,you'll still land on stars!
*twinkling stars*

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

blues clues

counting the days till the D-day.to meet at the most exquisite rendezvous,Dewan Utama.everyone will be scribbling and jotting down anything that comes across the mind at that particular time.
zaaaapp....
that was like a couple of hours ago, when my spirits to face this AS was soaring and tumbling high above the sky.until night fell,and my feelings shattered to pieces.i was devastated,and i hope to Allah it is a blessing in disguise.my heart pounded vehemently.i couldn't think properly and was flicking the shekels for the zillionth time.i went to the bus back and fro,checking whether there were still those who accidentally didn't pay.sadly,everyone shook their heads and my difficulty wasn't solved.finally,left with no choice and trying to be as willingly as possible(i am insyaAllah!)i used my owns.at first,i thought i was going to burst right on the spot,nevertheless it aggravated even more with my fellow comrades throwing empathy and thrusting ideas on how to solve it.their were those who never even cared,but still it doesn't matter.but still,whatever does occur,it has happened.just keep on praying and hoping that someone Does realise they mistakenly took it.still,looking on the brightside,its really great to be surrounded by people who warmth you with their kindness and its good to have jovial camaraderie with them.friends are knights with shining armors whenever we are in distress,and that it is totally undeniable!well then, after a whole night full of things going around mr,i'm exhausted as can be.i hope that the the total power output that i got while learning physics just now in quotient with total power input given by Allah for letting me understand physics,which was taught by sir kumar, will reach efficiency one hundred percent.so before i rest my case,i really hope that whatever happened tonight will reach an ultimate solution and my shekels are returned.
















to whoever that had accidentally took the extra shekels,are total schwangs!(ask jake sully what on earth is it)

Sunday, January 3, 2010

dear..it won't be long.

in the world that is vast with technology gadgets here and there.you cant help yourself but be updated to the latest and thrilling gadgets.after thriving with ace in spm,my mum offered me to choose a particular handphone as a gift,i couldn't help but felt jovially overjoyed.nonetheless i was going to enrol in college anyways,and handphones are a necessity.after flicking through pages of useful websites regarding superb handphones that were in style and magnficent,i ended up with sony erricson's walkman and owned a W595 on the 24th march 2009.my little babe.

it has been helping me communicating in various places as far as europe and middle east to the nearest of south-east asia.aiding me capturing sceneries as beautiful as the sunset painted with streaks of gold and lavender strikes to the simple pictures of the backyard with flowers blooming here and there.anger triggered whenever my babe got scratches and even ensured that a black leathered casing would shadow it from any weather disturbance.how fidgety i was to my babe.until i realised, last week it encountered a little dysfunctional matter,if someone called me,i couldn't here any sound from the other party.i mean not a sound came out.i though it was a silly misconnection so i just let the matter go,but when a few people called,and still the same problem occured,it exceede mu limits of patience.i couldn't take it anymore and brought it to the original shop that sold it.so here i am left alone,feeling my other part is missing.can't wait for it to come back!miss you babe!




p/s zie...please send you baby to get repaired too,i can see she's in a very bad condition .

Friday, January 1, 2010

010110...new year everyone!

lets get this straight.theres so much in my head right now and i just want to spill it all out including revealing some resolutions for 2010 of mine,off the top of my head:

seek blessings from Allah
stop bluffing parents about anything
capture and put as much endeavor for AS
not too close with opposite attraction(i'm right on with this!)
memorize and understand juz 'Amma
reduce avalanche of saliva usage!
reduce the amount of food containing low density lipoprotein
get out and inhale fresh air(oh man! do i have to!)
control my jealousy
love my sisters eternally
stop breaking promises!
a geeky kiki
a bookworm

ok,lets move on,and i'll try to compile everything.i have this upheaval of entering a few classes.whenever i'm in that particular class,i'm shrouded in misery.i guess reality does bite!ouch! I was stung again in the heart.it hurt and ached but it didn't scar.i guess i'm accepting it willingly.i have to agree i'm not born as a genius,nevertheless i don't intend to be a genius.yet i hope i get to be a knowledgeable person.so people can't bluff me easily.well thats that,i'm also having problems with the way a sit.i mean i'm always hunched up especially when i hit the books and by the time i'm finished , my backbone aches thoroughly!sometimes i feel that i'm like quasimodo in the hunchback of notre dame!how cool is that?and to get over the pain,its soothing to lie on the floor because it sort of repair the misplaced bones.moving on,i attend tuition at different places for chemistry and physics and they're both tremendously fun!due to my long period for A level,my class in college is quite far behind in the AS syllabus,thus when i went for the chemistry tuition where everyone requested to learn the organic compounds.we agreed half heartedly,but in the end i must say i'm totally into organic chemistry.and there's some part in geometrical isomerism known as cis and trans,where theres a few conditions about it,where it must have a double bond,each carbon must be attached to two different groups and restricted rotation of carbon carbon double bond that end up forming cis and trans.well,the funny part is ,to identify cis,it must be the same group that is on the same plane and cis is so similar to sis(ters)!what a coincidence.(i know it doesn't sound at all funny but still it humors me -_-).physics is super duper enjoyable.nonetheless,physics is so freaky detailed.it freaks me out having to remember so much principles and conservations.i still can't exactly imagine a visualization of  isolated systems.this goes for both conservations of energy and momentum,where the conservations are valid as long as it is in an isolated system.for example,in conservation of energy,the initial condition's energy is exactly the same as energy at the final condition.where we know perfectly in real life.it is so illogical for energies to be conserved because in anything we do or in any particular movement or action,energy is released,even a teeny-weeny bit.but then again,it is in an isolated system,so theres no external force disturbing it.i guess it is true somehow.hmmm(still wondering).also there was usrah with sis hanem and i would like to share a bit about one piece of verse in the Quran ,which comes from surah al a'raaf:172,where it was mentioned.before Allah created our body,he created our souls first.and these souls have sort of like signed an agreement with Allah that,they will always obey and do Allah's orders.so when He blowed the souls into the bodies which leads to who we are at the moment.it is so wrong for us to disobey Him.since we are just normal homosapien muslims,it helps if we continually seek forgiveness from Allah and remorse the wrong doings.and lastly it was memorable enough to cherish sweet moments with fellow schoolmates,mimi,gira and chuelah.we kind of did a surprise party to chuelah since it was her birthday on the 31st december,excluding the birthday pranks ok!and it was just relieving to sit down together,hover over the most delicious cake ever and talk,talk and what else,talking of course.its just so good to be able to talk klate(kelantan dialect) after suffocating weeks of using urban malay language.i guess i am that pure klate girl.and i'm surely proud of it!so all in all,there were days that had its ups and downs.i like quoting from jean ure's book,there are days where you are over the moon,but suddenly you end up down in the dumps.but then again,that is called life,what else do you expect?