Friday, May 21, 2010

a walk to reminisce

i went to pasar malam...
but we didn't board the bus...
it was raining heavily...

try picturing three ladies under the rain with plastic bags of hot food,waiting to be filled in the tummy,walking for a few kilometres,passing muds and wet grasses.cars passing by skid there wheels ending us up jilted wet.


did any picture pop out?


to be frank,it was wicked!i mean,how often do you actually walk in the rain?anyway,i was'nt actually wanting to go at first?i mean i'm not a big fan of the pasar malam.yet,there was this intuition that was deep, i guess a big push from Allah shoving me to pasar malam and see the world a bit.not just ending up in this cocoon.to shorten the story,the only one i knew going was jawahir and athina,besides that the bus was no where to be seen and the time was 6.09 pm.we were on the verge of returning to our apartment when ,ustaz joe passed by with his avanza and kindly offered to give us a lift,so of we went.
buying here and there,and as usual i always felt like i wanted to buy the whole lot LOL!so after an approximately 45 minutes there,then we started to panick.how on eart are we going to get back!not to say we didn't think of this consequences at first,frankly speaking,i just followed the flow,so as long as i get to reach pasar malam,i didn't care about how to get back.so,we exchanged looks,and tried to think of people back in college who got cars.the typical names came out,
fara-balik
dyg-went to pasar malam so no chance,plus don't know her well
miss syikin-troubling her
asep=zahrul's car=troubling plus always asking for their help before this

conclusion-walk back to ktt

so off we went,in the rain,thanks to Allah,it wasn't heavily raining,there were just a few drops of it by and by,and my god,the scenery was very Green and the atmosphere was humid,sekali terasa macam pejuang muslimin ketika perang badar,yang allah turunkan hujan yang cukup untuk hilangkan rasa kering at that particular time,sedangkan on the kafir's side,allah turunkan hujan yang lebat till they can't see what's in front of them.we walked and continued walking.we reached college and immediately heard the Maghrib azan.
Alhamdulillah , we made it.
safe and sound,




thank you Allah for the great walk.

Thursday, May 20, 2010

picnic on the cliff with mummy,kakak,nenda and aunt may-ang

sperm inhalation alert!

all of a sudden i have a mummy,a daddy, a kakak and a whole bunch of relatives in ktt LOL.this is what happens when As examinations becomes a vengeance for us.the thing was,it all coincidently started in alamanda where harisah proclaimed me and ayunie to be the little sisters and belle and her as the big sisters.i guess the height significance was the main reason at first right?but then the whole thing expanded and now we live happily ever after in our mansion,tangga 7.its quite comforting eventhough you live just nearby but the fact that you're away from your family and you haven't seen them for nearly a month.You know that there's a whole bunch of your family's here to support you and be with you.Now speaking of being with us,the usrah with kak ain last week was so meaningful,Allah is with you no matter in what situations nor on what conditions you are facing He will be with you,as long as you want to be with Him,and amidst the examinations showering on us,the feeling of stressed out,useless and stupid can be very tactful.who told you not to study your butt out!who told you to fool around!who told you to sit back and enjoy the show!duh.....but to be honest,moments like this won't make you comforted unless hearing the words from Allah.

cukuplah Allah menjadi penolong kami dan Allah adalah sebaik-baik Pelindung(ali imran:173)
 moving on,last night , there was a talk by prof madya dr zainurrashid who was a doctor and specialised in obstetric and gynaecology.he was an RCSI graduate and he has varies of achievement,but what made me salute even more was that ,he did a lot of humanitarian missions and he's priority was the people.he said that the journey in being a doctor isn't as easy as abc and we'll always face predicaments on the way,but he said that the more we fac these problems the more experience our life becomes,he showed videos of his surgery and there was this one abot a mother delivering a baby!this was the first time in my life to see such a thing and it made me shudder,how painful our ummi was just to get us!and to think we dare to do things she hate.I love you ummi and will always do!then he also took out an issue regarding how teenagers nowadays are becoming more and more rebellious and accidently having babies.he was so sad to see this phenomenon and whenever he is facing patients who have alive foetus in there
wombs and at the same time claiming that they had never had a partner nor did any coupling,he came out with a hypothesis that made the floor laugh the throats out:SPERM INHALATION.now that was a major cynical, but it was a clear message to teens out there to realise that they need to have pride and come back to their senses.

 
 kirimkan surat pengharapanmu di tengah keheningan malam.jadikan airmatamu sebagai dakwatnya;kedua pipi sebagai kertasnya:kepasrahan sebagai setemnya: dan Arasy Ilahi sebagai alamatnya.setelah itu tunggulah jawapannya.

-Dr Aidh Abdullah Al-Qarni-

Sunday, May 2, 2010

pondering

i'm exactly in the amidst of thorough intense.i want to get everything over as fast as possible.but i think i'm still floating in my own wonderland.wondering what is going to happen to me next.stacks of footnotes to be done,piles of books unfinished,tonnes of past years to be done and redone.the trials turned out not so good,and i'm going to ensure that i'll retaliate it during AS insyaAllah.exams are just beyond the junction.i'm stuck in the middle of nowhere,deciding to continue walking or take a car.i'm scared to death right now.everyone's talking about exams,everyone's on a hiatus from doing unnecessary things,when am I?

millions of love to you maryam