Monday, August 30, 2010


I'm about to depart to Jeddah from KLIA.So now,nawaitu kena jaga,jangan fikir nak melancong,not even having thoughts of enjoying,jangan fikir nak shopping,jangan fikir nak rasa great sebab dah pergi sana several times,tolonglah Ya Allah,correct my niyah and let me go there to just seek your blessings especially since its the last days of Ramadhan.Ummi also reminded me to keep my mouth tightly close and not giving blunt comments(especially kalau bab mengata orang)!So I'm zipping my mouth right now and I hope it doesn't stop here but also onwards.

it is about time...

in front of Masjid Nabawi

sekitar Masjid nabawi

the picturesque of Bukit Uhud

Masjidil Haram and constructions here and there
Subhanallah,in less than a day I'll be in Medina and consequently move to Mecca.Ya Allah,I've been there last year and I'm going again this year?Allahuakbar.if I reflect back this whole year,too much have happened,I used to be,Aqeelah,the girl who slips in her fardh prayers,the girl who swears here and there,the girl who gossips and talk behind people's back and lots more.But no human being on earth is perfect!and of course that is so totally true and undeniable but still,I can change if i want to,and I realise,I rarely put any effort to change,thus how on earth am i suppose to become a better person!

Still,the biggest 'nikmat' that Allah gave me is that i'm still going through life as an islam lady and running through days of halawatul iman!Alhamdulillah.This whole year,no matter how bad I think I still am,I have been one year cultured with tarbiyyah.It has been a year and i sense changes in me.No matter how bad I think I am,but frankly speaking I know I Have changed,somehow.No matter how people accept me or see me,I am turning into someone better.I know that deep inside me,I can take care of my fardh prayers,I can bite my lips from cursing by simply saying astaghfirullahal'azim,I can stop being nosy and just know what I'm suppose to know.I can do it and I know I is only a matter of wanting it with Allah's permission.

I was praying terawih just know when something happened that kept me thinking.There's this little girl who I always bump into at the surau.She wears this 'kain sembahyang' which has shining red strawberries on it and  dark yellow in colour.i always see her either for Subuh or Isyak prayer.Well,thats not an issue yet,because yeah all kids end up in the surau.but mostly just goof around and jumps here and there doing there 'businesses' in their cosy little world.But this little girl never affords to leave the prayers,fardh nor terawih and she even listens to the tazkirah during the intervals!to me, that is quite something because she's just around 6 to 7 years old and I myself who is about to reach 19,still has this laziness to listen to tazkirah,yet she listens contently without any hesitation.To shorten the tale,today I guess she was extra tired,she slept throughout the tazkirah.But I must admit,the 'pentazkirah's' voice was kind of low and sort of like a so-called-lullaby voice which made me sleepy too.the only point that I could get was

'reciting the Al-Quran before fajr is a very good thing and it can be a ticket for us when we enter Jannah one day'

well then,after that,the tazkirah ended and the imam was ready for the next terawih prayers.The little girl was still asleep and her kakak had to shake her several times before she woke up.when i looked at her,half of her looked conscious and the other half was still having dreams.she stood up but was a little wobbly so she sat down in front of her kakak who was the same saff as mine.the imam was doing everything from rukuk-sujud-duduk antara dua sujud-sujud and the moment hestood up and cried out 'Allahuakbar' all of a sudden this little girl also stood up!Imagine that!I mean,I was shocked a bit and I had to peep at her to see what was going on,and I saw her eyes were half closed.A lot of things crossed my mind,was she going to sleep walk?was she ok?but I tried to get rid of the thoughts and continue praying.

but then, how focus could you be when you rukuk,and this little girl in front of you rukuk too,but in a totally opposite direction.its like a mirror image.she was doing what we were doing,only facing us instead of facing the kiblah!So towards the end,during the sujud she never rose up again.but don't fear, she didn't pass out or anything,she just dozed off.Because right after the imam gave salam,her kakak shook her again and took her straight to the a room at the back of the ladies area.poor little girl,she must've been superbly tired!

well,the point of the story was,that the little girls' determination to seek Allah in unbelievable!at a small age,she has this willingness and determination to listen to tazkirah,pray at the surau and lots more.she can even pray in her sleep just by listening to the cries of the imam!SubhanaAllah,it shows how devoted this little girl is.How many out there can compare to this little girls' highly spirit?I know that it is quite hard for me,yet I'm never going to surrender or give up,I am also determine to seek Allah 'azza wajalla.Allahuakbar

Labbaikallah humma labaik,Labaikalah sharikalakalabaik' innalhamdah wanni'mata lakawal mulk la sharikala!

it looks like,I should be going,I have a long way to go.

Sunday, August 29, 2010

happy fasting day

it is already the 19th day of Ramadhan and it is important here that you are able to prepare your body physically and mentally to face a new day tomorrow!

are you ready to be different and leave a mark anywhere you go?

spread the words of islam...


how far are we going?

Alhamdulillah,its already the 18th of Ramadhan,sadly the Maghfirah phase is about to end.To what extent have we put effort in order to gain maghfirah from the Ghafur!A saying from an ustaz giving a talk at surau at-taqwa that, as far as the phase of rahmah passed by,how many out of all these billions on earth,have felt the Rahmah Allah gave? how many have felt that they just want to quadruple the amount of ibadah they are doing right now?how many have the ability to differentiate between the bad and not so bad things to do right away?Its not as easy as it sounds to totally transform into someone who we call 'bertaqwa',but it is worth trying.

Well,my heart right now is pounding while doing the countdowns to fly to the land of anbiya'.thinking of it,makes me shudder.excited and scared.its exciting and i'm glad to be lucky enough to walk on the pavements where Rasulullah used to walk on!and also the pavements the sahabah used walk on.besides,we know that a new building upholding the biggest clock on earth is in is said,it has overshadowed greenwich to become the centre of time zones for the whole world!

does it come to some of us that , mecca is developing alright! or some may think that, at last islam is rising up again,we shan't be fooled anymore,but have we seen that beyond these current thoughts,it actually shows one of the 'sign' towards the Day of Judgement.In the second hadith of Imam Nawawi's forty hadith,there was a part where it mentioned that gigantic buildings are the sign of the universe coming to its end!

 Also on the authority of Omar, who said : One day while we were sitting with the messenger of Allah there appeared before us a man whose clothes were exceedingly white and whose hair was exceedingly black; no signs of journeying were to be seen on him and none of us knew him. He walked up and sat down by the prophet. Resting his knees against his and placing the palms of his hands on his thighs, he said:"O Muhammed, tell me about Islam". The messenger of Allah said: "Islam is to testify that there is no god but Allah and Muhammed is the messenger of Allah, to perform the prayers, to pay the zakat, to fast in Ramadhan, and to make the pilgrimage to the House if you are able to do so." He said:"You have spoken rightly", and we were amazed at him asking him and saying that he had spoken rightly. He said: "Then tell me about eman ."He said:"It is to believe in Allah, His angels, His books, His messengers, and the Last Day, and to believe in divine destiny, both the good and the evil thereof." He said:"You have spoken rightly". He said: " Then tell me about ehsan ." He said: "It is to worship Allah as though you are seeing Him, and while you see Him not yet truly He sees you". He said: "Then tell me about the Hour". He said: "The one questioned about it knows no better than the questioner." He said: "Then tell me about its signs." He said: "That the slave-girl will give birth to her mistress and that you will see the barefooted, naked, destitute herdsman competing in constructing lofty buildings." Then he took himself off and I stayed for a time. Then he said: "O Omar, do you know who the questioner was?" I said: "Allah and His messenger know best". He said: "He was Jebreel (Gabriel), who came to you to teach you your religion."

p narrated by Muslim

There's no scaring us off or whatsoever but it's more towards letting us feel some self realisation.The time we live on earth is within a blink of an eye.Utilize properly the time and get ready with a lot of what we call 'bekalan' akhirat.reciting the Al-quran,praying Solah,doing dzikir's and doa's,plenty of good dees to be done and the list continues.there's no time in turning back nor pausing and stopping by.we should start packing and keep on going!come on,lets move it guys!

so with the mixture of feelings,i have to get myself well prepared to go to mecca and medina.imagine,being a visitor of Allah and being closer to Him.Able to cry and weep till the tears get exhausted to leak out and eyes puffed because of regretfulness being a terrible servant to Him.Able to do tawaf for umpteenth times till the legs get sore.Able to i'ktikaf in masjidil haram and masjidil nabawi till the body aches.Able to perform zillions of prayers,recite the 'love letters' in front of Him!SubhanaAllah,the feeling is again unbelievable and this is felt before even going there yet.(tears filling the tear glands)

May Allah be the One and Only and let us only think of Him as our final destiny,InsyaAllah

(a picture of us performing maghrib prayer at our home today)

Saturday, August 14, 2010

drive ahead

it has been a year through sweet symphonies of the bluebells and weeping down in the dumps together,
AJGC forever.

like I care ?

i'm no good writer nor a good thinker,i sometimes do weird actions,but that's me.Alhamdulillah and tonnes of appreciations tokens to be given away especially to The Creator,who already wrote and destined whatever happened and happens to me.AS is over,A2 is bobbing itself up and down waiting when on earth am I going to grab it.Still, I need to settle loads of things here,whether or not retaking biology,going to Allah's house,adik-adik mutarabbi and mid semester examination besides wrapping up the whole Ramadhan with it.What has Allah encountered for me next?SubhanaAllah,may i go by the days sincerely because of Allah

Friday, August 13, 2010

marhaban ya ramadhan!

salamun'alaik to all,may Allah bless all of you.
after nearly a year passing by,we have reached the month of ramadhan al karim.i was talking to my housemate,mayang and ruz about ramadhan,and throughout the chat,i got to know that whenever someone greets you with "marhaban ya ramadhanulkareem" you should reply back "allahu akram".Well then,i wanted to share a few things regarding ramadhan,whenever we mention ramadhan,we know automatically that we have to fast throughout the month,Allah gave his orders to the muslims,to fast starting from the year 2 hijrah.So,imagine that people have been fasting since the medievals,why shouldn't we?Fasting or puasa in arabic is said to be,assiam.It also means,leaving or meninggalkan and in istilah syarak means,ensuring that we don't eat or drink and do actions that can misguide our fasting starting from dusk till dawn.This month is also very special and means a lot because the syaitan's are captured and cannot disturb the muslims,so we are only left with our nafs.Imagine,every single syaitan is tied and locked up?I suddenly picture that the people in the world become as nice as angels.Subhanallah!First of all is that,niyat is very important when we fast.No point fasting for one whole day,exhausted to the limits,but we forgot our niyat!as simple as 'lintasan di hati' or a brief thought of wanting to fast , does it all.besides that,multiplying the ibadah sunnah and other good deeds.Allah rewards the ibadah sunnah we do,the same as he ibadah fardh,while the ibadah fardh we do,he rewards us 70 times the reward we do for ibadah fardh,Subhanallah!Moreover,in Paradise,there is this door,the door called Ar-Rayyan ,that can only be opened by those who fast,thus isn't that a privilege for us the Muslims?Allahuakbar!Up until then,there's plenty of rahmah in this month of barakah!so Muslims,lets walk together and feel the halawatul ramadhan.insyaAllah