Thursday, February 24, 2011

the cake and the not so small boy

<3credits to ifah for the cake and photography

hey,don't mess with us!

alhamdulillah,it was just last night that I was in college,and now I'm celebrating my little brothers birthday at home,yes thats right.I'm in Shah Alam,and even I myself can't believe how fast everything happened that right now I am with my siblings and parents here.

I was wanting to return home this weekend,but due to a daurah I wanted to go,I had to squeeze in some time to pop back at home for a while which ended up today.besides,for us,birthdays are big issues.not that it must be a grand celebration like having a party full of balloons.But just a simple and warm get together with cakes and presents would do the trick,and I must say,lots and lots of presents may be handy.

So this year,sadly without Una as usual as she is nun jauh di dungun,we chanted 'happy birthday' at the dining table with ifah's home made cake,kudos ifah!you finally made it,didn't you?so for the birthday boy,Ahmad,he got everything he requested and was smiling ear to ear!

moving on,I went prayed maghrib and isyak at surau at taqwa,and right after that,there was a tazkirah maghrib,he was very funny and witty and he really loved budu,the fact that he mentioned about it for the umpteenth time.but what really caught my attention was a quote he recited which got me thinking of my first ISK a few years back.

"...umat Islam perlu berbai'ah dengan kerajaan Islam,selagi belum tertegaknya kerajaan Islam,maka selagi itulah kita akan meninggal dunia ini dengan berada di dalam kejahilan.."

astaghfirullah astaghfirullah astaghfirullah

I reminisced about a quote an akahwat gave during my first ISK,she said the same thing!

"...setelah kejatuhan sistem khilafah pada tahun 1924,umat islam telah berdosa setiap saat,kerana rakyat tidak boleh berada tanpa kerajaan islam dan khalifah,jadi sekarang kita sudah mencecah dua abad,maka cuba kira dosa umat islam yang terkumpul.."

and again I'm sweating,besides my own sins that I create,I'm also part to balmed because of this situation,could I bear any longer?and being someone that is not near at all to political life,how on earth could I create one whole muslim territory?do I want to die in misery,being just leftovers of earth?nauzubillah

and I was left questioned until now,ahamdulillah,I'm finally realising my significance,my existence is meaningful after being on this path of tarbiyyah,if I can't do politics,then I will do usrah and such and make sure that we spread Islam to muslims themselves out there.And I will ensure Iwork on this da'wah road to keep on telling others about shahadatul haq and being khalifah and abid.

according to the current status quo,we can see that muslims everywhere are uniting and rebelling after living in lies and misery,Allah helps those who are innocent.

after the egypts dethroned hosni mubarak
now the libyas are trying to kick out col muammar gadaffi
who will be next?
hey,don't mess around with muslims!

what i know is that i'm not going to sit here and watch,together with brothers and sisters,we also have to,hand in hand,together with these people try to rise the ummah!


Wednesday, February 23, 2011

commotions of the heart

I know I should be happy of you,you're great at everything,but the weird thing is,deep down inside,i don't feel that excitement.Maybe you could see the insincerity if you look deeply inside me,but then again everyone is happy of you.So why shouldn't I?

The feeling creeps in every inch of my body and it bothers me.I'm a person with an infinite perception,and I know its bad to give bad perceptions,su'uzhon,but I merely do it without realising it.I'm sorry again.Iknow you deserve it and Allah has planned this for you,so congratulations anyway.

But it doesnt make my day anyway :(.I don't feel miserable but I feel terrible as a daughter.I've never been a good daughter since I was small until now.The aqeelah you see now is full changes since you've all just known me temporarily.Now I know the reason why my siblings dislike my personality is because of my evergreen 'bossy'ness and my furious temper!They've known me since small and you don't.I think I've changed but I haven't.

I'm aware of the shaytan bothering me from the front,from the back,from left and from right,but sometimes I never even put in effort to shield myself from it.Astaghfirullah.And to say I fall for shaytan's whispers?No way!

So,here I am,trying to clarify my feelings,and I realise,I never open up my true self to people,there's too much things going on throughout my presence on earth for the past two decades.How I lead my life before tarbiyyah will always be in the hands of Allah,insyaAllah.He knows every teeny weeny bit.

So I guess I need to move on,this da'wah path is not as simple as mentioning it,you have to do it.And you have to be aware,sometimes people around you don't understand you,so you only have Allah with you,and He will definitely stay with you.

O Allah,the Kind one,please stay by my side be it I stay strong as al adiyat or as weak as the weeds draping out of the pot.With You,there is peace.

of 16 GB memory card

dear ahmad,

happy birthday little brother!

nothing much to say,but I'm happy you're growing well and healthy,still wondering and hoping that you'll grow out from being too indulge with your psp you know!Plus,I couldn't help but smile,the fact that,a little girl commented on my little brother,how handsome he's becoming into,LOL Ahmad,you must be beaming thoroughly brother,anyway,you're such a sweetheart and no matter how often you put on you temper,we all love you full heartedly,always

kak long

thanks zaim for buying the memory card and azila for the stupendous card!

Sunday, February 6, 2011

a 10 hours of nothingness,

I'm currently missing my atok and nenek even though I just spent the weekend with them :'(

Thursday, February 3, 2011

saairun - pengembara

jika rakyat muslim di mesir bangkit menentang pemimpin mereka dalam mempertahankan agama Islam,ayuh bangkit wahai muslim sekalian untuk terus berjuang mempertahankan al-aqsa,kita hanyalah pengembara yang merantau di dunia ini,sebagai abid dan khalifah,wallahua'alam.

Wednesday, February 2, 2011

I'm not a girl,not yet a women :)

I've actually filled my holidays with baking and cooking a little bit here and there

and I must say I really am working hard on my next project,patchwork,here I come!


a chinese proverb recited by professor abbas was

it is easier to stand by the window than to look in a mirror

we will always feel that we are in a comfort zone when we look at others and blame them.

and the feelings of 

proud,arrogant,pleased easily,bossy and a lot more,shows that we are in zulumat(darkness)

so we need to get out of the darkness and get into the light.

holidays filling.

well the days are moving and I'm here,safe and sound in shah alam.On one of the nights,where that evening we made cream puffs(best sangat okay),I followed my mum to incief,it is sort of like an open universiti for students who take masters or doctorate as a part-time.

It was a class for Quran and Economy,conducted by Prof Abbas.We reached late since we got stuck in the highway,but at last we got there,Alhamdulillah.

He was ranting about Riswah(bribery),Maysar(gambling),usury,tijarah(interest) and all these things about ecnomics where I could figure out some and the rest was history.But I didn't sleep or what,I just listened.I was amazed by the way he conveyed everything in Islam's perspective.The fact that he always smiled when relating to the Quran and he had this fatherly look.

In the middle of the lecture,he suddenly mentioned about sibghah,sibghah is dye,then he gave a situation,in morocco,there is this place for dying clothes and so every piece of the cloth will have that particular colour.the same goes to us,we need to have the sibghah,which is controlled by Allah in determining the concentration of the sibghah.

We reflect back during the sahabat's ages,how bilai bin rabah and sumayyah reacted eventhough people provoked them badly.

they could just think of Allah,the one and only.

this is one of an example that the sibghah has suceeded.

Our religion is the Colour of Allah,and who can colour better than Allah?And it is He Whom we worship.

al baqarah:138

Besides,professor abbas also added,when Allah created mankind,he patted himself for the good work because he himself admitted that mankind were the best creation ever,Subhanallah!

Thats why,if we do wrong doings,we seek for tawbah.Tawbah is not about repenting it is all about returning.

Imagine,you have strayed away too far from the real and true road and you don't know where to go,at that moment,you will feel so bad and seek forgiveness from Allah,for He is the most Merciful.So when you turn back to return to the right pathway,you see Allah opening his arms and waiting for you in open arms to hug you.You will cry you heart out,but don't fear Allah has always been with you all this while,Allahuakbar!

so lets together sit down and think for a while,that Allah is the Most Gracious and Most Merciful.