I'm left behind,I need to buck up!!
Its hard when you don't want duniawi to linger you but whatever regarding duniawi is what people judge first.I'm in a class similar to 5f and my position is just like I used to be,the ones who need to be highlighted and taken care of,its like deja vu and very ironic,I feel surrounded by people who are magnificent and deserve the lime light,oh but then where am I?,Oh Allah,do I deserve India?do I deserve being a doctor?have I fulfilled being a full-time Muslim?
It's hard being in a group of those that knows everything and understand everything but I find myself still bobbing up and down and clueless in what to do,Oh The Almighty,show me guidance,be with me ya Allah.
I find myself lost sometimes,I find myself embarassed and I find myself not worthful,remember! I have thousands of responsibility but I don't know which one have a catered yet.
I'm worried instead of being a muharikah,I'm a mayyit,my jasad is alive but my ruh is as dead as a corpse.
I'm always worrying and worrying
and continue to feel worried,
when will I take serius action?