amalgamation of thoughts

The numbers of martyrs, are increasing, showing no signs of decrement. The israelis are continuosly invading as if they don't even have the idea of backing off. Numbers will remain numbers, but Allah will count all the blood spatted out form these innocent bodies, the bombs exploding here and there with the most stupid reason of them 'self defending themselves!' what more do they want? isn't it enough, already splitting there families apart? isn't it enough killing them like hunting gazelles in the wood? we are talking about human beings, not barbie dolls! The whole world knows the truth, the X files of Gaza itself. How the prolonged invasion by the israelis, must be put to a stop. wait, does the whole world truly knows? we share the same bond. we share the same fikrah. we share the same aim. so were one. if only truth was a tongue, how the cowardice would have been put into justice long ago, punished vividly for their unlawful actions. The...

For every superhero, their mum still packs up lunch boxes for them :) It has been more than one month I have settled down in Egypt, and it has been more than a month that I have been in my 'new' home with the most awesome people that have ever existed on earth. Can I just have a minute to pray for them, Oh Allah, give eternal happiness to us all. Beit Durrah. Our home, where my body as well my heart sits. I used to think that I was always alone in this dusty and noisy land, but I was wrong. I used to think people cared less about me, but I was wrong. I used to think, being together was a mess, but I was wrong. I don't know if my presence had gave a mark in your lives, but your presence changed mine. Our laughters during dinner, our togetherness in that tiny kitchen, the salams before going out, our tears, and still the list goes on, all mixed up in one, giving out the word , bahagia To whom I may concern, I am blessed to have you guys, a gift from ...

Cancer is when unwanted cells take over a region of the body. Unwanted or impossible love is like a cancer of the heart that only God can cure-yasmin mogahed I hope there is no necrotic cells of the brain due to over usage and deep thinking :D. Tomorrow is my first examination for this semester, and I admit, bluntly, that I have done put such inadequates effort that I myself think so. Pondering back, neither have I stayed up late nor have I done endless notes. *sighing* To leave your hope to Allah, you must insert thorough efforts and du'as first, and then tawakkal, but if you are in a condition of unreadiness, thus that ain't a good sign. Ain't a good sign indeed. usaha itu manifestasi tawakkal kita-roomate terchenta And it made me thinking, what if tomorrow was never a tomorrow, will I be ready? Busied by the examination of the dunya, have I put aside the examination of akhirat? Thus, my dear fellas, renewing intention is the solution to all. Renew your in...

Taqwa itu di hati. Maka ia terbukti kala sendiri & sepi. Saat godaan menari-nari & diri merasa tiada yang mengawasi. Ya Rabbi, jagalah kami." - Salim A. Fillah  A great quote diilhamkan oleh such a great creator! Dalam keadan-keadan sebegini, kata-kata hikmah oleh akhi dan akhawati, sentiasa buat diri ini, tengok skrin macam nak tembus. Tertusuk sangat. Baru habis 'menumpang' sharing farah dengan adik-adiknya, dan terimbau kenangan di KTT dulu. Kenangan sewaktu berusrah berbelas-belas di rumah ilani,kown,lyana and ayuni. Ramai benar. Tapi bahagia. Kini, masing-masing sudah berpecah, bertebaran di muka bumi Allah. Masing-masing mencari keredhaanMu. Doakan kami, para muharikah. Sebenarnya, pagi tadi, sewaktu di kuliah, disapa oleh jiran kerusi sebelah, sembang punya sembang, tiba-tiba, dengan takdirnya, dia tanya CGPA or something like that, i couldnt remember precisely but it was related to my results and I answered, that I got 2 point something. Wha...

Pernah terfikir, aku tiadalah bakat untuk menulis tulisan himmah dek kerana lack in vocabs and lack in skills if presenting dan tak tersampai pulak mesejnya walaupun sudah berkali-kali mendengar daurah dan usrah masih belum mampu menghasilkan tulisan yang totally ilmiah, belum lagi, mungkin nanti, biiznillah. tapi terlalu banyak benda dalam diri yang tidak boleh dipendam dan harus diluahkan kepada sesuatu, maka terhasillah blog ini luahan dan nasihat yang dilontarkan dari hati yang nan hari cuba mentajdid niat agar menulis kerna Dia sewaktu scroll down, dalam newsfeed blog, i went through a blog that was telling about her writing histories which lead to what i am writing now. She quoted, "Semua penulis akn meninggal. Hanya karyanya yg akan abadi. Maka tulislah sesuatu yg akn mbahagiakan dirimu diakhirat nanti" - Sayyidina Ali Jazakillah khair awak ;) Sometimes, I have to stare too long looking at the blank page wondering what to write ...

Saat pertama tarbiyyah menyapa, terasa seolah-olah dunia ini, dunia kita dengan Dia, hanya Kau dan aku. Terlupa diri pernah di hinggapi dengan noda-noda dosa, terlupa diri ini, pernah bersahabat dengan geng-geng kongsi 'gelap' itu, alpa dengan dunia sendiri, dunia melepaskan tempias nafsu. Tapi, sejak hidayah dan tarbiyyah datang menjenguk, seolah-olah seperti orang yang dahaga di beri air, seolah-olah seperti si lapar di beri makanan, seolah-olah seperti si rabun diberi penglihatan. Melengkapi dan mengisi ruang-ruang kosong dalam diri. Hatiku dibajai dengan iman dan islam, bercambahlah amal-amal islami itu, dan hati melompat kegirangan, bahagia sungguh! Namun, kadangkala, sekali lagi, aku disapa dengan mereka, yang aku kira musuhku, mereka bertau-talu mengetuk diri yang sedang longlai ini, menarik diri yang lemah ini, untuk kembali seperti dulu, kembali menjadi geng kongsi 'gelap' mereka itu. aku takut takut andai, aku tersungkur dalam ke...

Kebenaran yang tersusun memang mampu mengalahkan kebatilan yang terabur. Susunan memang perlu, hatta nombor mahupun abjad, berada di posisi yang ditetapkan. Lepas A memang B Sebelum 10 memang 9 Dan begitula sunatullah. Kenapa dengan susunan mengkucar kacir emosi. Astaghfirullah. Memang hati ini berbolak balik,Tapi pengemudi hati ialah iman. Moga kerana susunan ini, hati ini tetap dan iman mantap. Begitulah status facebook saya pada hari tetapnya shuffling usrah kami. Sungguh, sadis dan air mata tidak henti-henti. Bukanlah ini kali pertama saya melalui sistem penukaran naqibah dan usrah, tapi kali ini, tamparan lagi hebat. Masih segar diingatan bagaimana,saat di KTT, sentuhan pertama tarbiyyah ke atas diri yang hina ini, waktu kami berbelas-belas orang semuanya yang dalam satu halaqah itu, pada suatu malam,masing-masing mendapat mesej oleh naqibah lama untuk pergi ke sekian sekian tempat pada waktu sekian sekian. Dan pada waktu itulah, kami sedar, kami sudah dibahagikan kepad...