amalgamation of thoughts

Sekian lama aku di jalan da'wah, ku rasa himmah dan ketsabatan ku makin kendur makin pudar dan semakin hilang serinya kenapakah? kenapakah... seringkali aku ciptakan alasan di atas perangai aku sendiri alasan 'tiada masa' , 'penat' , 'malu' sering diungkapkan oleh bibirku maafkan aku ya tuhan maafkan hambaMu yang lemah ini pegang erat tanganku dan kemaskan hatiku untuk dituju kepadaMu Ya Allah sesungguhnya , detik untuk aku tinggalkan syaaban sudah hampir , dan aku bakal menerima kehadiran cahaya Ramadhan tidak lama lagi, amanahMu sentiasa diabaikan atau di ambil mudah kini aku ingin menunaikan hak diri untuk memegang erat amanah itu sebagai khalifahMu dan sebagai abidMu insyaAllah hambaMu Aqeelah shah alam 29  shaaban 1431

‎'Aku ikut halaqah" "Aku join usrah" "Aku mendapat belaian tarbiah" "Aku adalah akhwat!" Mengapa bangga menyebut dirimu sebagai seorang akhwat? Padahal kelakuanmu tak ubah seperti sampah, Malas solat tahajud, Solat wajib pun kau malas kerjakan, Apatah lagi solat jemaah? Ah, cuma mimpi, Apatah lagi membaca surat cintaNya Novel, cerpen atau komik lebih mengujakan, Asyik dan menghiburkan, Daripada membekalkan diri dengan buku-buku islami, Benarkah kau sudah ditarbiah? Kalau dengan lawan jenis, tidak terjaga muamalatnya Matamu meliar, hatimu, ah, entah di mana..?? Dalam berdakwah, engkau memilih, Menumpu pada yang lebih membawa kenikmatan, Padahal dakwahlah yang harus digerakkan, Dalam berdakwah, engkau memilih, Lebih nikmat bertaushiyah dengan lawan jenis Lagi-lagi dengan dalih dakwah Padahal ramai rakan sejenismu Lebih perlukan pada bimbinganmu Bukanlah seorang akhwat, orang yang tidak menjaga lisannya, Bukan juga yang tidak menjaga pandangan dan ha...

Dear Allah, please accept me  Yours sincerely, Aqeelah

i make a call for all those like me , who wants to make a change but can't quite find the key , who plans so much for tomorrow , and forget they have today , but , problem is , if we stick to this mentality our youth will actually decay , because the measure of youth is not by how old you are or how fast you can drive a car , but it is all in here , in your heart , and how much you can do , how much you can give , how much you can see through, so , just by being young you don't redeem the noble status of youth it is only given to those who truly deserves it and that's the truth Amal Ahmed Albaz

I have my own battle,trying to control my nafs I just sinned,and kept on sinning I'm such an ungrateful servant And all I can do is burst into tears :'( I need someone,and I know that I need you Ya Allah I need you badly Ramadhan is approaching and instead of whining I should be preparing to recharge my imaan so that I can meet you Ya Allah in the Day of judgement Oh Allah, I need you badly I'm sorry Ya Allah, I'm taking for granted the chances I had My nafs is out of control and what do I do? following my nafs bluntly instead of returning to you my bad , Ya Allah I'm repenting and I'm regretting of my stupidity and misconceptions will you forgive me Ya Allah yes , please forgive me (whispering) because I just need you so badly

she is islam , and I , am in love falling deep down in love with her , I must say.

she is islam , and I , am in love falling deep down in love with her , I must say.

Sanah Helwah Ya Ukhti Dearest Liyana, I rarely do birthday greetings,but you are a little special *winks* We've known each other for 2 solid years and it was a blast knowing the calm-and-quiet girl who actually seems to be a funky and loud lady! I'm glad to know you more on this tarbiah road, how the langkawi jaulah made me know you better and love you more. Not to say my love is easy to get,but the love to you spills in my heart,that is the beauty when you love someone because of Him. And every time we talk together you always give me advises that touches my heart,your blog posts are superb and your photographs are amazing. All in all,I'm just glad to know you. Until we meet again dear Love Aqeelah.

Salamun'alaik. Out of the virus in the world,the most dangerous and preposterous virus is human's love.Love can make you go astray.Love can destroy a beautiful relationship.Love can just make you drive a way from reality. But why do people fall for human's love .It's not eternity.It's surreal. Love is unstoppable,but please,please dear sisters,love Allah first,and you will love all the people around you because of Him,inshaAllah. ukhwah fillah

I'm here,standing,running,sitting,smiling,aywa,I'm here. But where's my soul,it's here too. Is it here? I smile,I just don't feel the pleasure of smiling anymore. I laugh,I just don't feel the satisfaction of laughing out loud. I feel,enough to feel what is need to feel. I think I'm going through a phase which is unidentified,growing up but the harder way,growing up with no auxin to make me grow vertically fast. It's just that,I sometimes can't remember the old me. But everything that happens around me is tarbiyyah. Being here is a tarbiyyah. And coming to think of it now,I can't stop the tears coming out whenever the Gaza issue comes up.Yes,I know we need to save our muslims there before this.I knew that,but I couldn't feel it,the sense of belonging with each other. Now,I feel it,and I want to do loads of stuff,being a volunteer in the medical team to go there is one amongst the updated list of future plannings that I hav...