gone with the winds of shita'

Its March, yes, months pass by, without fail, with His will. And here I am steady as can be, beginning a new semester and being piled up by work loads that are pushing me to an extent that is beyond my comfort zone.

now i get it, all this while, i have been tucked in safe and sound in my very own cocoon.

you won't suffer the blade until you yourself have been cut by it.

That is when, to one level, you want to run away and hide from people around you, run away to be embraced by your loved ones.

do everything because of Him.

either you begin to do something with force, or willingly, remember to renew your intentions, scared that every deeds didn't even count in front of Him, simply because you did it because you thought that you were able to do it, instead of because He gave you the ability to do it.

but it ain't that easy,

thus,

tawakkal kepada Allah wahai daie sekalian, 

letakkan seluruh pengharapan pada Dia.

kerna tawakkal seorang daie sangat penting untuk menguatkannya dalam jalan dakwah ini. Kerna kita memikirkan pasal ummah, memikirkan pasal manusia, bukanlah robot, bukanlah benda.

Semester baru, lembaran yang boleh dikatakan baru, menjanjikan contengan yang hebat buat saya yang menggelarkan diri seorang daie.

Uish 

takut-takut untuk voice out dengan yakin bahawa saya seorang dai'e, kerana bukanlah famous mahupun pujian yang didambakan,

sebaliknya terpikul amanat besar dengan menggalas shahadatul haq itu.

teringat lagi tatkala pulang summer last year, sewaktu bangun pagi seusai matahari diatas kepala, abah menegur, 

"betul ke aqeelah ni naqibah, macamana boleh jadi naqibah asyik bangun lambat je?"

*tundukmalu*

itu baru abah yang menegur, orang yang paling rapat dengan kita, yang kenal kita Bagaimana pula dengan mad'u kita yang hanya memandang dengan first impression, adakah mereka akan tsiqah dengan kita? adakah mereka nampak qudwah hasanah yang kita cuba tonjolkan?

seorang ukhti ada berkongsi pesan luqmanul hakim yang dinukilkan dalam buku zero to hero,

janganlah sampai ayam jantan berkokok menandakan waktu fajar sewaktu kita asyik berdengkur di atas katil.

Cuba ubah diri. 

Me and you, together we change ourselves,

for the sake of ourselves, the ummah, and Allah.