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We were at the airport yesterday, sending off Una to Jordan. And when we wanted to return home, Abah told us to perform asr prayer and off we went.

Suddenly, I realised Ahmad was still with headphones and his new ps vista as if he didnt want to let go of it. And so my sister ifah, softly spoke to him saying that he needed to leave both the headphone and ps vista to mum before performing solah. I mean logically, you don't go prying with all those stuff on your body, right?!

And he wasn't responding as if he didn't want to move from the place he was standing, as if he didn't care what we said.I got impatient and furious, saying out loud,

"suka hati Ahmadla nak jumpa Allah macamana!"

My sister ifah, looked at me warningly and told me under her breath,

"cakap elok-elok sikit, macamana nak dakwah orang macam tu"

and that stabbed and pierced my heart.


I thought I was in madrasah tarbiyyah, yet why don't I act as one? I cant even speak nicely to my siblings, and sometimes we fight because of my harsh words or bossy acts.

That's one issue, I always get in usrah about how we should show qudwatun hasanah and how to act nicely to people, but practically, its tougher than only knowing it and scribbling it down in my buku usrah!

Another thing was, how I am to indulged with internet that I tend to spend long hours on it which leads me to sleeping late at night and opening the youtube channels watching movies or stories that doesn't increase the iman at all and listening to absurd songs like the oppa gangnam song.



di bawa arus dunia yang membimbangkan.

I remembered an ukhti shared about her own story at home, at that time, she was watching the television,and she had just got back form somewhere and wanted to rest for a while,and she chose to watch the television but he shadn't prayed Zuhr yet, suddenly her brother came to ask her whether she had prayed yet.

Listening to her answer, her brother said,

"Lalai, lalai, kalau boleh biarlah kita punya perangai sama padan dengan tudung yang labuh tu"


Terasa, tertusuk, tergolek dek dihunus tajamnya kata-kata yang benar.

Maybe it was that ukhti's story but it reflected me the most.


Those things that makes us further from Allah, is jahilyyah. Bad things we used to do before we had usrah, things we did before we know good deeds and tarbiyyah is jahiliyyah.

And jahiliyyah is a friend of the devil.

So we try to wash of the stains of jahiliyyah through our repentance, through our sincerity in our ibadah, through our increment in our ibadah.

But why does it come back, even though we had done so many things to get rid of it!

Jahiliyyah is like a boomerang, it returns no matter how far we throw it away, thus we need to build a strong wall of iman and taqwa, so it is as far as possible, away from us,
So its not the length of time we had join usrah and tarbiyyah which determines how good we are or how far we had changed, but the sincerity and the determination in grabbing Allah's love and mardatillah which boost you to become a better person.

Don't look down on people but don't go worshipping them, no one is ever perfect but everyone deserves to be treated perfectly nice.

You and I share the strong bond of Aqidah,

so please, correct me if I'm wrong.


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Berita besar

Di saat seorang ukhti datang dengan berita bakal melangsungkan bahtera perkahwinan, Tentunya hatinya diselebungi bahagia, gembira, ketenangan dan redha dengan aturan Allah,
Di saat yang sama, seorang ukhti lain datang dengan berita, bahtera perkahwinan tertangguh, si jejaka mengundur diri, katanya ingin mengalih fokus dari fikir tentang jodoh. Tentunya hatinya diselubungi hiba, kusut dan sedih dan paling penting, juga akur dengan caturan Allah.
Allahu T-T
Dua berita besar,  Berbeza watak, Berbeza perasaan.
Yg sama adalah,  Berpaksikan Allah.
Indahkan menjadi muslim yang sebenar-benarnya!

Jim ra ha, bukan sekadar luka.

Kepala sebelah kiri berdenyut. Throbbing but diffused pain. Mengganggu konsentrasi betul sakit kepala ni.
Oh well~
Baru kita sedar nikmat kesihatan apabila dicuit dengan sedikit kesakitan.

bismillah, where should i start...

Ceritanya, sekarang ni, i am actually facing my final semester examinations (Im actually halfway through in finishing this medical degree!)

And to make the story brief, pelajar tahun akhir ni Alex, coursenya akan terbahagi kepada dua semester,

Semester pertama : department surgery
Semester kedua : department internal medicine

Dan setiap semester tu ada penilaian akhir yang macam apa kami tengah pulun right now.

Jadi in the midst of examinations, one of my housemate triggered me to actually search in the Quran if there were any words, or kisah or verse regarding surgery.

And so I did, with the help of bayan apps, I searched ج ر ح .

which if spelt together, جرح .

There is a signboard which i always see whenever i enter the buidling at my faculty for clinical rounds, …