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Denial is a horrible place to live in,and that is exactly where I am.Denying all sorts of things around me that i have to encounter and besides, I just realised,my biggest inferior is myself,and I keep hovering behind my own shadows,afraid to leap out,afraid to make a change.I hate decision-making which is weird enough for a 21-year old lady, and I depend too much on people.

Thats why,when I lean on them,and they run off,I fall and I can only let tears out instead of standing up again.

Lean on Him, that struck me the moment I realised I was busy moping on unnecessary issues.Yes Him!And for all this while, I have been sleeping in daylight, or day dreaming in class.Being totally alone,kept me thinking, I need some space,I am suffocating yet there's nothing that can be a help unless I help myself.

Waking up a sleeping giant is nearly impossible,but turning over a new leaf and realising what you're doing is twice harder.I rarely put myself in other's shoes when other's face problems,but when I am in their shoes,only then I know,only then I ponder.

these past few days,are a mystery, but it's a good start for the new semester and the new phase.

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Jim ra ha, bukan sekadar luka.

Kepala sebelah kiri berdenyut. Throbbing but diffused pain. Mengganggu konsentrasi betul sakit kepala ni.
Oh well~
Baru kita sedar nikmat kesihatan apabila dicuit dengan sedikit kesakitan.

bismillah, where should i start...

Ceritanya, sekarang ni, i am actually facing my final semester examinations (Im actually halfway through in finishing this medical degree!)

And to make the story brief, pelajar tahun akhir ni Alex, coursenya akan terbahagi kepada dua semester,

Semester pertama : department surgery
Semester kedua : department internal medicine

Dan setiap semester tu ada penilaian akhir yang macam apa kami tengah pulun right now.

Jadi in the midst of examinations, one of my housemate triggered me to actually search in the Quran if there were any words, or kisah or verse regarding surgery.

And so I did, with the help of bayan apps, I searched ج ر ح .

which if spelt together, جرح .

There is a signboard which i always see whenever i enter the buidling at my faculty for clinical rounds, …