thanks for the poem abah!

How does it feel when the amalgamation of sadness and joy linger together?How can you cherish love to the beloved ones?What do you do when you request for something and straight away get it?absurd,overjoyed and bizarre is what I can merely say for now? Since little,I was the apple of the eye.I get what I desire.They play the games according to my rules.I can boss anyone I like.I conquer everything.But sadly,due to all these,I lose respect,they don't turn to me,and the most thing I fear is they will hate me so much.That is why,day by day I'm determined to change.yet,I've never change but continue being a pain in the ass!I love these people.Terribly love them that if I lose them I end up shattered into pieces and i don't think it's going to be an easy task to fix me up again.Enough said!

Pin-drop silence

I need to get back into reality,I splash water to my face to wake up.To realise where I am standing and obviously to get going.So, while the time continues tick-ticking,the sun never fails to brighten the earth,the stars aren't tired to keep on dazzling and shimmering in the darkness and I,still standing on earth due to gravitational attraction and respirate,shall I bear in mind,that the most valuable piece that is bestowed upon me,is my heart.No matter what my future is,the heart needs to be seeded with iman and faith for Allah.When you tend to diverge from the right path,reevaluate your heart and ensure it is on the right track.

credits for my dearest abah because he accepted my request and dedicated a poem.he's the best father in the universe!here it goes~

The Light of Life

The sky is so high  ….

I never bother to notice

The sea is so deep….

 I never bother to dive in

The land is so beautiful….

 I never dare to scale

The wind blows swiftly ….

 I never feel the breeze

All things beautiful around me 

I never wanted to appreciate

How ignorant I was …..

What if …..

The sun stop shining

Or the rain stop pouring

There be no more rainbows

To paint the sky

What if ….

The heart stop pounding

Or the eyes stop blinking

There be no more rhythm 

To play the song of life

What if

The bees stop buzzing

And the birds stop tweeting

There be no more sounds

To play the music of nature

How ignorant I was …

To know to deny

The bounty and the blessings

From Allah Rabbul Jalil

But Allah is The Most forgiving

For giving me another chance

To see and to feel

The miracles of living

I could see

The light at the end of the tunnel

That will end the darkness

To open a new chapter 

Turn a new leaf

Start a new journey

Deep into the soul

Tattered with filthy actions

And dirty intentions

ALlahumma anta robbi  Laalila haiLla anta

kholaQtani wa ana abduka  wa ana ala ahdika

wawa’ dika mas tato’ tu

aboo ubi ni’mati ka ala ya wa aboo hu bizanbi

fagh fir li  fainnahu la yaghfiruzzunubaiLla anta

O Allah please accept my taubah

For You are the most forgiving

…and thank You

For this life…..

p/s I know the structures of sentences are quite mixed and match.Thats what I tend to ramble when my mind is muddled and disorganized,forgive me.When am I ever going to learn to sort out my priorities?

*heavily sighs*