Digging the real jewellery

 Hello there,  Today marks a new starting point for me especially since I am currently pressing my hands on a  keypad of my very own laptop *squeals with excitement* I have been so long dreaming and longing for this day to come, the day where I can breathe in a new atmosphere where  I can own a laptop again, since my very loyal white MacBook in 2009 has been serving me but it has met into halts somehow during 2017, and I have been alone since then. Thus now I have a very dear belonging that I hope serves me well as well as my previous laptop, so welcome to my very new MacBook Air :)  Currently I am certainly in cloud nine and my fingers are happily dancing on their own.  Dear God, May I use this new belonging well and for the sake of you.  04122022           

Morning stroll

Its just moments till Ramadan. Blinking away and then the next thing you know it its already the fasting month.  Today I decided to take a morning stroll and I was mesmerized by the sunshine showering its spread of ray on Akinabalu and its surrounding. Along the way I was listening to Ed Sheeran’s latest duet with Taylor Swift, The Joker and the queen. I was swooned with the song and the part where they sang,  I know, you think that what makes a king is gold,  A palace and diamond rings.  It struck me, I always knew things like diamonds or golds has always grabbed people’s attention, usually because our eyes are drawn to those glittery and shimmery jewels besides the value of them which is indeed high. People would do anything just to own gold, or to live in a palace and wear expensive jewelleries, but the big question mark is, is it the ultimatum of happiness?  Because know that these are things that does not last, unlike our personalities and our hearts, a golden heart can win a tonn


 Today.  Marks a day that I am still given the opportunity to live. To still tell tales, and to make my own self changes.  Yesterday I was looking up on the butterfly effect, and Ashton kutcher played so well as Evan treborn, who kept trying to return back to his past life to change what he thinks could result in something better, but everytime he tried to change an event, he would end up hurting each one of the people that existed in his life that he loved. Until a scene was between his father where his father said, we are not God, we can't fix things.  Which is true, no matter how hard we try to do something, that particular action would turn into a something either it will do good to us or others.  So, what can we do?  Thats where it comes, fikir dulu sebelum cakap or istikharah and ask god, seek from him hidayah in our actions, because we humans were born with full blown limitations, but God did not create us hanging, he gave us brains to think, a body to be responsible of and

hartal doktor kontrak 1.0

Hi, I am contract medical officer, with no guarantee of a permanent post. Hence hashtag hartaldoktorkontrak comes in. On this day, I was at home due to home quarantine,  i am not sure if i wasn't quarantined, would I be among those marching out from wokrplace? In my area as I work in a health clinic in district area, those in contract post are minorities,  so I know i'll be working,  BUT, I know I support my colleagues doing the strike because we do have the rights,  we have been fighting behind the curtains for so long,  and once this opportunity is given, we go for it, I am certain I am not someone with a very aggressive who speaks out loud eventhough its to say the truth,  i am quite of a hesitant, i am quite of indecisive person, I am not a spirit fighter,  I am not saying that I am not scared of the future,  but I know when I have the rights, I will fight for that,  and I know to put on a proper fight, we need to be prepared, with a gauntlet armour, And if there is light a

Torn apart, blown away by the storm

 Salam to all,  Lets start of with a quote,  “Your best friend is the one who: seeing him reminds you of Allah, speaking to him increases your knowledge, and his actions remind you of the hereafter.” (Al-Muhasibi) I have some inner and outer crisis going on now. Have you ever felt you loved someone and yet you are showing it badly and the loved ones are going in the opposite direction ?  Thats exactly how I feel now. I feel terrible today. I realise that I have weird ways to show how I love and care for people, and sometimes I just give all the wrong signs,because my words say something my heart disagree. I am dishonest with myself. The thing is, I have this circle of girls that I love and have cherished since our housemanship era. They have been with me through thick and thin, and they are RAW. I have not mixed with much people since college, my surrounding has always been those yang saling menasihati or saling membaiki, and somehow sometimes i just feel its too good to be true. But w

Eidul Fitri 1442

A little throwback to cov-eid 2021. I am so blessed to be able celebrate the fiesta with them, to pray solat sunat raya, to hear abah's khutbah, to eat ketupat, lemang and rendang, nasi impit kuah kacang with our signature dish nasi dagang ikan tongkol.  We then had our annual photoshoot with ahmad leading the way, hence took so many pictures for keepsakes. Pity this time, hannah was grumpy halfway through the photoshoot. She is going to regret it nanti bila tengok balik gambar.  That sums up our raya and its content enough for our cosy small family,  Nowadays the case are rising and my predictions is it might take months before i get to meet them again. Now how disheartening is that? Stay safe everyone! back from left : una, maryam, me and uun(adik ali) front from left : ahmad, ummi, abah, ifah, hannah and ali From left : una, ummi, ifah, hannah, maryam and me

Quarantine again

 Hi and assalamualaikum ,  Where should I start? Well currently my housemate was just detected positive COVID for the second time. And yes she , well us the households are all vaccinated, thank god! So what does this indicate?  It means i am a PUI(person under investigation) thus i need to be quarantined to a certain period of time before i am considered COVID-free despite negative COVID swabs. Now, How do I feel? Scared of course! Scared that I might have one and health-wise post COVID is no joke to the body.With mixed feelings as my quarantine means lesser healthcare workers at clinic and that needs replacement here and there, which is actually a hassle. My swab was taken yesterday(23/7/2021) but the results still aren't out yet. So I am kind of having some palpatation due to this.  However, there is this small lingering relief feeling, as I haven't completely rested since I started my work since Raya. I think my body has been working 7 days a week and it reached to a point w