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Ramadhan has reached its third phase, 

 while me? Still stagnant and unproductive :(

 I continue sinning and repenting, its like a spinning turbo, or a AC circuit, not knowing where to go but turning up and down accordingly,

 Thats the current iman mood,

 Astaghfirullah thumma astaghfirullah thumma astaghfirullah,

 without consequences as I normally do, 

 pouring what is deep down in my heart, 

 with no certain pattern.
I do not know whether I would want to return to malaysia next year,

 after all that has happened to me,

 on this short yet meaningful days,

 since the very day I landed,

 and this bothers me,

 either I just decided that for my own good, 

 or am I just running away from reality?!
Currently off for Masjid Hopping or I say that the Conquest of My Soul and to seek for the Night of Lailatul Qadr,

 Can I be your guest, Ya Khaliq :')






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